My World!

1 Year, 2 Months, and 4 Days...

2010-02-12T16:10:00.000-08:00

Yes, the title says its all. Today, February 12, 2010, I was offered the Assistant Manager position at PIER 1 IMPORTS. I accepted the position and am so very HAPPY! It's been 1 year, 2 months and 4 days since HURLEY terminated my employment. I seriously can not believe its been that long. And trust me, I plan to play by the book, keep my mouth shut, and kiss as much booty to move up and build an honest career within the company. I have learned my lesson, and never want to find myself in this position again, unemployed and having to move home with Mom and Dad! Yes, I am VERY thankful that they were able to help me out, but man has it been a whirlwind. Plus, I have to start saving money! I have some bills to finish off paying, and then I gotta start saving because I made a promise to a very special little girl! I promised Miss Inara Grace that I would move to Colorado to be closer to her. It wont be within the next few years, but it WILL happen. :-) Thank you for all your support, encouragement and love.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2010-01-02T08:04:00.000-08:00

I can hardly believe that it is now 2010! I remember the 80's, the 90's and then I remember when the world was to shut down and reset when we reached the year 2000. Where has time gone? It's way true, as you get older, time goes faster. 2009 was such a rough year for so many people, myself included. I'm determined to turn 2010 into the best year though. Here are a few things I would like to get done this year: #1 - GET A JOB!
#2 - Move out and get back on my own!
#3 - Lose weight and get back into shape by Summer
#4 - Do one last musical as my final production!

So, I promise to keep you all updated on my progress. One quick update, I do have a job interview with PACSUN again next week for an Assistant Manager position in Laguna Hills. Cross your fingers that I land this because it would be an AWESOME way to start 2010! Love to all!

NINE the Movie

2009-12-29T09:31:00.000-08:00

OK, so after months of waiting and excitement to see the newest movie-musical, NINE, Noel and I went to see it yesterday. For a week now I have been listening to the soundtrack and feel in love with the cast. Granted, the actor/actress' are not strong singers, but their portrayl cam across beautifully. The song Be Italian sung by pop superstar and Black Eyed Peas front woman, FERGIE, was the best surprise of the whole movie as the prostitue, Saraghina. She had a minor character, but captured the audience as soon as she appears on screen. I wish she was in the movie more, but I believe the screen-time she did have, will have audiences talking! Fergie was only part of an amazing ensemble cast, Judi Dench, Nicole Kidman, Kate Hudson, Penelope Cruz, Marion Cotillard, the ever beautiful and elegant Sophia Loren, and the leading man, Daniel Day-Lewis. Marion Cotillard's Luisa Contini was brilliant. The role wasn't major but demanded a lot of emotion. Just a look from her, and you could see the heartbreak and sorrow in her eyes. The song, My Husband Makes Movies, was heartwrenching and filled with sadness with a lonely wife longing to be with the man she once fell in love with. Dame Judi Dench played the costume designer, Lilli. Any role Ms. Dench is cast in, she delivers an impecable performance, in my eyes. This was no different. She was playful, smart, and in a way sexy. Her musical number, Folies Bergere, was another favorite of mine. The way the scene was filmed, Lilli in black and white film and the background actress' in color, SPECTACULAR! It made the scene a memorable one but also captured the essence of the movie. The other stand out performance was Kate Hudson as the Vogue reporter Stephanie, or as Guido calls her, Stephanina. From the moment her musical number begins, Cinema Italiano, you can't help but think that this is a homage to her mother, Goldie Hawn. Her dancing, her personality, her sparkle, resembled Goldie Hawn back in the day when she danced around on different tv shows. This song, written specifically for the movie and not in the orginal Broadway show, I hope gets an Oscar nomination. Although Kate did an amazing job, I would hope Fergie would take the stage to perform it at the awards ceremony. Penelope Cruz as the mistress Carla, was surprising. Granted I'm not the best fan of her work, she delivered a great performance and was impressive in her musical number. Nicole Kidman as Guido's muse, Claudia, stands out as the beauty of the movie. Ms. Kidman no stranger to the movie-musical, was very unique but I felt didn't deliver the best at the end. Don't get me wrong, I loved her performance, but she wasn't one of my favorites in this film. Daniel Day-Lewis as the leading man, Guido Contini, was delicious. I don't know why, but he is just one bucket of SEXY! His vocals were weak, his acting was superb, but his portrayal was memorable. Lastly, the beautiful Sophia Loren. Ms. Loren portrayed Guido's Mamma. To see her on the big screen again was a delight. She brought such beauty and elegance to the character and the film. Her song, Guarda La Luna, written again specifically for the movie, was so soft and filled with love for her son.

In closing, I highly recommend you go see this film. Not only to support the movie-musical, not only because I said so, but to see for yourself a movie filled with surprise performances, cinematography that is beautiful, and an all around amazing show. You will take an emotional ride, crying, laughing, breath taking, and in the end, happiness. What more could you want from a film? NINE, the movie-musical playing nationwide in theaters.

December 1, 2009???

2009-12-01T07:19:00.000-08:00

Is it really already December 2009? Are you kidding me? Wow, time does go by fast as you get older. Today is my Mom's 65th Birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! Marisa and Inara are in town visiting. They arrived on Friday, November 27th, as a huge surprise for Mom's birthday. There is a video on Facebook of her reaction for you to see, so check that out. The visit has been planned for months now, because we're good like that! Ha Ha! It's been a kick back, relaxed, family time visit, which I know Mom loved. Marisa did have company (Sierra and Layla, Elizabeth, Chara, and Cami/Jason and his beautiful girlfriend Lily) all had a chance to meet up and see Inara. Meeting Baby Layla was awesome, she is so beautiful! I am so VERY happy for Sierra and Mike. Marisa also got to meet up with Jason's Mom, Grandma Di. Monday night was Brother and Sister night to have some alone time. We went to Yogurtland, Trader Joes, and I even got Marisa to check out Old Navy! We got some great deals too!

If you haven't heard, I have met a really great guy. His name is Noel! I am very happy and content. When we're together, its like we've known each other for years. As Mom told me, "I've met my match! He's a smartass just like you!" So that right there is a HUGE plus. And yes, he definately can hold his own. Noel attended the Tomaselli Thanksgiving Dinner and made it through with flying colors. Lisa enjoyed his company, Kylie had to warm up to him, Mom loved him because he brought her flowers, Kyle and Pop didn't talk to him (which was expected). The next night, he came over to meet Marisa and Inara. Marisa thought he was great and I believe she likes him too, Inara kept her distance but wasn't too shy. I will definately keep you posted on how things are going.

Today we are off to Disneyland for Mom's Birthday, she gets in for FREE! A friend of mine's best friend is going to sign Marisa in. So, no money spent on admission. YAY! Happy Birthday once again to my Loving Mother, my Best Friend, my Heart and Soul! I LOVE YOU BIG MOMMA!!!

Yay For Interviews!!!

2009-10-22T07:48:00.000-07:00

I know, I've been REALLY bad at updating my blog, I'm so sorry. As you know I was Stage Manager for SEUSSICAL the Musical at Cypress College. It was a rough rehearsal process but once the show opened, it went VERY well and I am so happy to have been a part of it. It closed this past weekend, SAD! But now its back on the job hunt again. Starting last week, I was hitting online job searches and sending out my resume again. I was hoping since Christmas was around the corner, companies would start hiring for Seasonal and also management. My resume has been sent out to a few places, but it seems no one is really hiring for management. I did score 2 interviews. One is tomorrow (Friday the 23rd) with a new company opening a new store in the MainPlace Mall, located in Santa Ana. The name is COTTON ON, an Australian based retailer who is now coming to the states to open locations. They kinda remind me of like a cross between Anchor Blue/Hollister. The second interview will be next week with PERFORMANCE RIVERSIDE. They're interested in possibly hiring me to stage manage a show or two of theirs. Yes, this time around there will be pay! YAY! But I will have to discuss what the pay will look like. Will the drive be worth it everyday? Gas money? Etc etc etc. So, I'm happy for the interview but not keeping my fingers crossed for that one.

I have been sending my resume out to Denver and Las Vegas locations. But still haven't heard anything from either of those places. Yes Kim, I know Bakersfield is hiring! LOL! I just don't see myself living out there. Plus, I need to stick close to the old folks here to keep the peace! Other than that y'all, that's where I'm at. Hope everyone is well!

Something To Look Forward To...

2009-09-01T11:10:00.001-07:00

OK, so I wanted to say YAY! Tomorrow, Mom leaves for 2 weeks to Colorado. She is staying with Marisa and Inara while Shawn is away. Mom will be helping out for Inara's upcoming 2nd Birthday too. Wow, I am still in awe that Inara Grace will be turning 2 years old. Where does time go? Anyway, also something to look forward to is Dad leaves for Colorado on Sept 10th and will be gone for a week. Yes, both parents will be out of town! Mom is gone for 2 weeks, Dad is gone for a week. PRAISE JESUS! I will have the house to myself for at least 1 week. As Elle Woods sings in LEGALLY BLONDE the Musical, " Oh My God, Oh My God You Guys! All This Week I've Had Butterflies!" Basically, I am THRILLED to be able to have some peace and quiet to myself for one week. Granted, I will be in rehearsals at night, BUT will be home during the day all by myself. No parties! No friends! No family! Just some quiet time for me and Toby! See, the simple things in life that bring such a great big smile to my face!

A Little MORE Than Nothing...

2009-08-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

OK, so I received a phone call the other day from a director friend, Jim Hormel, at Cypress College. He asked if I would be available and interested in Stage Managing for him the show, SEUSSICAL The Musical. After thinking long and hard about it, I've decided to do it! It will give me a reason to get out of the house and keep me busy, not to mention is something I love. The Vegas trip I had planned, I cancelled. Since there was NO guarantee of me landing the job out there, I decided to not go out and interview. I'm staying in CA at least until next year. When I get more information about the show, I will post the details and would love for as many of you to come out and see it! Seussical is a muscial based on, of course, the Dr. Seuss books. OK, just wanted to keep you all up to date. I start tonight at Cypress! Wish me luck.

A Little Of Nothing...

2009-08-17T13:55:00.000-07:00

So, I recently had an interview for a Part Time Customer Service Specialist with the Orange County Performing Arts Center in Costa Mesa. It went good. It was supposed to be a group interview, but it ended up being myself and one other guy. I was in dress slacks and a button-up dress shirt, he was in skinny jeans, a t-shirt and sweatshirt, with a big backback. I was shocked that someone would show up to the interview like that BUT that's just me. Anyway, so they went through the interview questions, I answered as best I could and made sure I hooked them in with my personality. I have over tweleve years of customer service and management, the other guy has 0! He was a dancer and owns his own business. If I were in the hiring managers shoes, looking at this guy or myself, I definately would be setting up a second interview with ME and saying Bye-Bye to this kid.

Also, this Thursday I have an interview with TOMMY HILFIGER in Las Vegas. They have a few management positions open, so I'm heading out there Wednesday. I have 2 comp nights at the Excalibur Hotel, so I will be back home on Friday. Hope this all goes well! I will keep you all posted!

8 Months Now...

2009-08-07T11:05:00.001-07:00

I have been out of a job for 8 months now. Can you believe it? I certainly can't! I have sent out over 250+ resumes, have interviewed several places, and yet have not heard back or been offered anything. I am on my First Unemployment Benefit Extension, but that wont last forever. I know there is a Second Extension I can go on, Thank God! I am just more and more depressed that I have not found something, you know? Yes retail is tough right now, but unfortunately THAT is the business I know. Sorry just wanted to share my frustration and to let it out.

Nothing New To Report....

2009-07-18T09:22:00.000-07:00

So, I'm sure everyone was tired of reading that I was "Missing Las Vegas." Here's what's going on with me. NOTHING! I am right back to square one. I am still applying everyday for a job, Orange County, Los Angeles, San Diego, Las Vegas, Denver, and even New York City. And yet I haven't heard back from anyone. For awhile I was getting tons of hits in Las Vegas, but that has stopped. I don't know why there is this period of time where I'm not getting any hits, companies are still hiring. And yes, everyone keeps telling me, "You're not meant to have a job right now, you're meant to be at home to take care of the family. Or that the universe is in control of your life right now." Well here's what I have to say about that, "WTF? When do I get MY life back from the f-ing universe?" Sorry, I'm breathing now! LOL!

I MISS LAS VEGAS!!!

2009-06-24T13:51:00.001-07:00

OK, so I just wanted to say that I MISS Las Vegas so much right now. I was there so frequent this past month and a half, that it started feeling like HOME! BLAH! I am so over California and all the bad politics here. AND I am very overwhelmed searching for a freakin job! But I need to search because it looks like I wont be receiving anymore Unemployment Benefits. This weekend I will be receiving my last weeks worth of pay. Yippee! LAS VEGAS TAKE ME AWAY!!!

Nothing...

2009-06-20T09:10:00.000-07:00

Good Saturday morning to everyone reading this! I wanted to post something to let you know about what's going on with the job hunt. This week I was supposed to hear from VANS, but heard NOTHING! I was told I was 1 of 3 candidates that they were looking to hire and would call me mid-week last week to make me an offer. Well, that didn't happen. So, come Monday I am planning to call them back and see what's the story. Beside that, I haven't heard from anyone else really. I'm still applying everyday in the OC, Las Vegas, even San Diego. But alas, nothing is happening for me. So, I've come to the conclusion that I need to once again try selling my stuff to get some money to put towards my credit card debt. Also, I'm gonna start dedicating the majority of my Unemployment Checks to 1 credit card until its paid off, and then once that is done, focus on the others, one at a time. Yes, my credit score will take a HUGE dive, but at least I am screwing it up on my terms, and not because I filed for bankruptcy. At this point, I have to do what I have to do to get the bills paid off, and since I haven't been able to find a job, this is my solution. OK, well there it is everyone. Still unemployed, still depressed everyday, and dealing with each day as it happens.

On The Job Hunt...

2009-06-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

Well, it's Tuesday and still NO word from any possible employers in Las Vegas. Before I left last week, I did speak with VANS, and they told me that they had narrowed their search down to 3 candidates, which I was one of. So, that's good news. But they now are running Background Checks, which I know I will pass, but will have to wait till sometime this week to hear anything. They said once they get the results, they will make phone calls with offers, so I hope the pay is something worth while, or else this was a complete waste of time for both of us, you know? Anyway, once I hear from them I will post again. Today I have an interview with PUMA, at the Block In Orange at 1:30pm. They are looking for a Supervisor position, so we'll see if that's like an Assistant Store Manager position or lower. If its lower than the ASM position, than I'm pretty sure I'm gonna have to pass on it because the pay wont be at the level I need it to be. OK, well I will keep everyone posted.

Aunt Jeri, shall I post a new pic of Britney for you to look at? LOL

Talk About LUCKY!!!

2009-06-04T15:08:00.000-07:00

OK, so yesterday I made the decision to make some phone calls to some retail locations in Vegas and ask if they were looking to hire any management positions. I truly HATE having to call and ask but I am SO HAPPY I did! As of right now, I have booked 8 INTERVIEWS!!!
Armani Exchange
Aeropostale
American Eagle Outfitters
Beachworks
Lucky Brand Jeans
PAC SUN (2nd Interview)
Cost Plus World Market
VANS (4th Interview)
I'm still waiting to hear back from a few other companies too. Wow, I have a fully booked week next week, and I am PRAYING something comes through. If you're wondering how long I will be there, well 7 days/6 nights. I drive out there on Sunday the 7th and come back to CA on Saturday the 13th. I am staying 3 nights at the Tropicana and 3 nights at the MGM Grand. I received a great deal at the Tropicana, 3 nights for $50. and at the MGM 3 Nights Comp! So, I'm basically paying $50 for a 6 night stay. CRAZY! I have an awesome feeling with some of the interviews, all are for either Assistant Store Manager or Store Manager positions. Some of them are looking to hire immediately, so that's good. My stomach is in a knot right now because I have a really good feeling about this trip. I hope everyone keeps sending me good vibes because I truly need them. I will keep you posted as best as I can.

More Interviews...

2009-06-03T18:17:00.000-07:00

So, today I set up an interview with COST PLUS WORLD MARKET. Yay! And I also spoke to PAC SUN, who wants to do the 2nd interview next week with me. Yay! I'm also possibly doing a 4th interview with VANS, but nothing set on that. We'll see what else I can set up and interview for. Keep your fingers crossed!

Another Update...

2009-05-28T07:56:00.000-07:00

So, my 3rd interview with VANS went very good. The guy who interviewed me told me that their interview process can be lengthy, meaning it took a month and a half for him to be hired. Mainly because of the company they go through for background checks. BUT I'm pretty positive I landed that job, the only problem its in the Assistant Store Manager role. So, we'll see what the pay is like and go from there.

Yesterday morning, before heading home, I had an 8:30am interview at Starbucks for the company PAC SUN. This also went extremely well. They are actually looking for a few Store Managers, so I'm hoping for this to happen. They guy who interviewed me said he was impressed and is definately going to push me on to a 2nd interview. (Yes, I guess this means I will have to do ANOTHER trip out to Las Vegas!) So, when I hear from them I will let everyone know about it. At this point, I have to do what I have to do. And if that means constant trips to Vegas for interviews until I land a job, so be it. And unfortunately NO ONE in the OC is calling me for interviews. I am still applying like mad out here too, but it's just not happening for me.

I never heard back from 7 For All Mankind. Maybe it wasn't a good idea since I would be buying tons of crap instead of saving money! LOL! And I did apply at Lane Bryant again. I found out that they too are looking for management. A friend of mine from Lane Bryant, Joanna, who left the company to work for Eddie Bauer called me on Tuesday to say HELLO. We got to talking and she is going to check with E.B. to see if there are any openings. I'm happy at least things are moving along and I'm trying to stay positive. That's the new update for now.

Quick Update....

2009-05-22T14:32:00.000-07:00

OK, so as some of you may know, I have been traveling back and forth to Las Vegas. Thankfully, the traveling has been for job interviews. I have interviewed twice with VANS, once with Quiksilver, once with Williams-Sonoma. So far, VANS is the only real promising one. I'm hoping, praying and crossing my fingers that I land something soon. I am heading back out this Memorial Day weekend to interview a third time with VANS and also go through the first interview with 7 For All Mankind. Each time I have been to Vegas, I have used my 3 Free Nights at Monte Carlo, MGM Grand, and New York New York. So, no one needs to worry about me spending money! OK, that's the quick update.

Britney Spears Concert w/ The Pussycat Dolls 04-20-09

2009-04-23T08:34:00.000-07:00

So, here is one of the better pics of Ms. Spears that I took during the concert Monday night. Karie and I were shocked that they allowed small digital cameras into the show, so I was fortunate to take mine in and snap a few pics. Below is a pic of The Pussycat Dolls, whom I love and fell even harder for watching them perform live. They all are so beautiful and can sing so well.

Colorado Update...

2009-04-16T16:39:00.000-07:00

OK, so it's Thursday and last night we learned that SNOW was on its way Friday. YIKES! About an hour ago, it snowed for a little bit but didn't stick around for long. Wow, it was nice to see but boy am I not prepared to see it snow for hours like it's supposed to. Oh well, at least we have lots of food and I have a warm bed to retreat to. Below is a picture I took of what Pop painted on Marisa's wall in her kitchen area. At first I wasn't sure about it, but once it was completed, I totally LOVE it and it is a perfect match for Marisa's personality!

We're Here In Colorado!

2009-04-11T06:31:00.000-07:00

So, after much debating, Mom, Pop and I finally committed to coming to Colorado to see Marisa, Shawn and Inara. But this time we were driving because we had some stuff to bring them. We had asked Pop about what time he wanted to hit the road this past Thursday, he replied "Around 4am to 5am." So Mom and I were up, showered, packed and ready by 4am, while Pop was still in bed snoring his head off. Pop finally woke up at 4:43am, stumbled downstairs and realized that we both were ready and yelled at us, "How come no one woke me up?" Then he stopped tried to focus his eyes and said. "Where am I?" I guess Pop was still kinda waking up. We finally hit the road around 5:30am, and boy we were in for a ride. Let me explain:

Since Pop had driven before to Colorado, he knew that the shortest route wouldn't be the best due to the weather and possible snow fall through the mountains. Plus he wasn't very keen on the idea of chains for the tires. LOL! So, he drove the long way around, which means through Arizona and New Mexico, and then up to Colorado. So, I must say, driving in a car with your parents for 17 hours is a MAJOR MIGRAINE! LOL! Of course Pop and I shared the driving, mostly me though because Pop's legs kept cramping up. I liked the drive considering the speed limit was 75 the majority of the way. Too bad Arizona and New Mexico had NOTHING to really look scenery wise, just rock and desert. Once the sun fell and the moon came up, we reached Colorado and had some things to look at, but couldn't really see because it was pitch black. :-) Mom sat quietly in the back, while Pop and I struggled to get to Highlands Ranch. Around 1am we finally exited the freeway to head to Marisa's house. Pop was driving at the time, so I had the directions in hand that Pop got from Google maps. Too bad that the directions were off by 5 miles! So Pop and I were very upset and cursing at the world! Finally I had to bite the bullet and call Shawn and ask for help. He gave us the correct directions and we got to the house around 1:30amish. We all quickly seperated to where we were stationed to sleep, Mom upstairs in Marisa's office/spare room, Pop slept in the living room/Inara's playroom, and I got the Guest bedroom. At that point I think we all were extremely tired and so not wanting to see one another until morning. Ha Ha! Of course we were up by 7am thanks to Little Miss Inara! Oh the joys of having a niece/Granddaughter.

I'll write more later and keep you all posted. But can I say, I MISS TOBY so very much. Boo Hoo!

Employment Update...

2009-04-05T11:13:00.000-07:00

Sorry that it has taken me so long to update my blog everyone. I figured it was time to give you a "heads up" on what's going on with my employment status.

As most of you know, I wake up each morning and apply like mad to anything and everything that is hiring! I've had great success applying on Craigslist ads versus Monster or Hotjobs. I have gone on a few interviews, Hot Topic/Planet Funk and more recently for the Flip Flop Shop. Unfortunately the first two were not interested and the Flip Flop Shop just did a second interview with me yesterday. I was informed from one of the partners of the company that they do not offer any sort of benefits plan, no employee discount, and the pay was way low! (I would be looking at a $16K paycut a year!) Once I heard all that, I knew that I would have to pass on this one. Pop and I agreed that I make more money collecting Unemployment, than I would be from that company.

I also have been in contact with my previous District Manager Elaine with ANCHOR BLUE. We met up a few weeks ago to just catch up and see what all I was looking for. She also wanted to see how much I have grown with my experience in the retail industry. I was informed that she would LOVE to hire me back within the company, and once she had something available she would let me know. This morning I received an email from her, asking me if we could set up a "formal" interview this Wednesday, because she has a Store Manager position opening up soon that she would love to place me in. So, it looks like I have a foot in the door there! I am totally excited about it and I'm crossing my fingers that I can land this one. Keep sending me good thoughts because I will need it! Wish me luck!

P.S.-OK, I know we had a blow up awhile ago about posting comments on our blogs, but come on Aunt Jeri, I need to hear from you and know you are reading these things! Yes, it was a bump in the road between us, but you are much loved and much needed in my life. Your comments and opinions are respected and valued, because you are definately my #1 Aunt in my family and I love you! So, you better start making comments again on my blog! LOL!

2009-03-05T16:46:00.000-08:00

Those were the days!!!

2009-03-05T16:44:00.000-08:00

Talk about an oldie but goodie! Auntie Kay, Nana and Marisa. Look at Nana in shorts and showing leg! WOW!

2009-03-05T16:41:00.000-08:00

WHAT WERE WE THINKING WITH OUR HAIR AND OUTFITS??? God Bless the 80's!!!

2009-03-05T16:37:00.000-08:00

OK, so here is another favorite of mine. I claim this, "BIG WHEEL FUN!" Can you all tell I scanned a whole bunch of pictures and am now sharing? :-) I have to make my big sister smile and cry every so often! Because I miss her with all my heart and wish she was still just up the street.

Memories Of The Past...

2009-03-04T19:13:00.000-08:00

This is one of my favorites with my little Big Sister! She looks so innocent. What happened? LOL

Sweet Dreams....

2009-03-01T09:23:00.000-08:00

Gee, what a life the two of them have! I guess Toby is leading in the race for "Favorite Grandchild!" Sorry Inara and Kylie, but my baby is the BEST! LOL!

Fun at TARGET With Matt!

2009-02-21T12:49:00.001-08:00

So here are a few pictures of my day at TARGET with my friend Matt. I convinced him to try on these hats because I thought he looked good in them. I told him I would snap a few pictures to show him and he agreed. I just thought I would share with you the random life I have, now that I'm unemployed and don't have extra cash to spend. We hot the stores, try on clothes/accessories and take pictures. We have fun and thats all that matters! Plus, it's FREE!

Classic Chicken Biscuit Pie

2009-02-13T08:19:00.001-08:00

OK, so last night I tried another recipe from my Tyson Chicken Cookbook. Classic Chicken Biscuit Pie! Let me just tell you, there is enough to feed an army when its says only 8 servings. LOL! OMG! But it was delicious. It had a similar taste to Nana's Chicken and Dumplings. Mom and I sat together and enjoyed a wonderful meal, too bad no one else was around to join us. Well at least we have leftovers for a few days now!

FIESTA CHICKEN SOUP

2009-02-10T10:49:00.000-08:00

OK, so here is a picture of the Fiesta Chicken Soup I made for Mom, Dad and Karie last night. Can I just say, I have found my NEW favorite soup. It was DELICIOUS! Mom and Karie loved it as well. Pop of course said it was too "tomato-ie" so less salsa in it next time. Oh well, I LOVED it and that's all that matters. Ha Ha! If you're interested in the recipe, let me know and I will email it to you or send you a copy of the recipe itself. But this is definately a MUST TRY in my book!

What's For Dinner?

2009-02-08T19:05:00.000-08:00

So, I've decided to start blogging about some great dinners I'm having here with Mom and Pop. I had a recipe book I bought for Chicken Dinners, and I think it's about time I start doing something for the two of them to pay them back for letting me stay here. Tonight, Mom actually made Pork Chops with mashed potatoes, gravy and fresh green beans. YUMMY! Mom did a great job, Toby even agrees! LOL

Tomorrow Karie is coming over for our tv show night, Rupaul's DRAG RACE on Logo and HEROES on NBC. I found this delicious sounding recipe, Fiesta Chicken Soup. So, I'll be in the kitchen tomorrow making that for dinner. I'm a little scared but excited as well. The recipe calls for salsa, and as you know, I'm not a fan of that at all. BUT it's time to put my fears on the backburner and try something new. I'll let you know tomorrow night how it goes and if it was as delicious as it looks. Wish me luck!

Sorry For The Delay....

2009-02-08T09:53:00.000-08:00

Well, I must apologize for taking my time in updating my blog. It's been quite a ride these past 2 weeks. As you know, I am still struggling to find a new job after Hurley let me go. I have been applying for everything, from gas station attendants to Store Manager at HUSTLER HOLLYWOOD. But with the economy as it is, companies just aren't hiring. So, I moved back home with Mom and Dad. THAT in itself is a HUGE change! I'm so glad that I dont have to worry about paying rent, electric bill, cable bill, but I feel like I'm 16 again. I feel like I cant go out without justifying it to Mom and Dad. Because I dont have the extra cash but at the same time, sitting in my room all day/night, I feel like they get pissed because I'm not doing anything. I dont know what to think or do anymore.

I'm doing my best to survive but its just so hard because I feel like as much as I try to get out of the credit card debt that I'm in, it doesn't go away! I guess this is just a fact of my life and I will ALWAYS be in this debt. OK, well it's time to get out of bed before Dad starts staring at me and Toby.

Packing Begins...

2009-01-13T14:22:00.001-08:00

Well, today is the first day of packing my belongings to move back in with Mom and Dad. I'm taking the smallest room in the house because this is ONLY temporary. Once I establish employment and get back on my feet with finances, I will be getting my own place again. This may take a few months, and may even take up to a year. But I know, I will be on my own again soon enough, before my 32nd Birthday at least!

Wouldn't you know it, Dad decided to go hunting or fishing or something like that for a week. He left today of course. Huh, I think he did it on purpose! But don't worry, he comes home on Sunday. Monday morning bright and early him and I will be moving my furniture, dining set, and refrigerator out of the apartment. He ain't getting out of moving something this time! I mean, he can drive out to Colorado for Marisa, he can help me as well. LOL!

Wish me luck everyone!

Las Vegas - Part 2

2009-01-09T23:01:00.001-08:00

So, this was taken at the "Bar at Times Square"bar in the New York New York Hotel and Casino. Don't we look so happy and make a cute couple? LOL! (Excuse me while I laugh!) Yes there was drama at the beginning of the trip BUT it ended with a wonderful night. We actually got a 4th night at the Monte Carlo comp. Since Vegas is struggling they wanted to keep as many guests as they could. So, we took the offer and stayed 1 more night. So, Wednesday we did the "tourist" thing and walked around, sight seeing. It was great. Very relaxing although my shins are killing me now! LOL Wow, 31 isn't easy. Anyway, we had a blast listening to two Lounge bands at the Mandalay Bay, then ran over to see the Dueling Pianos at the New York New York Hotel. It was awesome. We met a really great couple who just adopted Brandon and myself. They were buying us shots and drinks, dancing with us, laughing and sharing pictures and stories. It was so much fun! This night totally made up for the drama. I guess sometimes you gotta walk through the poop in order to get to the clean grass! LOL Where I came up with that I have no clue. Las Vegas ROCKED! I had a blast, just wish the interviews went better. But its hard right now with everything. I'm still applying like mad and next week start moving back in with Mom and Dad! Oh the joy of moving again. But I keep saying its temporary and I just need to land a job to figure out what I finances will be. So keep praying for me and sending me good thoughts. I'll keep you posted when I get more news!!! Love to ALL!!!

My 31st Birthday!

2009-01-09T22:53:00.000-08:00

OK, for all of you readers, I am still in awe of myself turning 31 today. Not that its old or anything. But I never imagined I would be turning 21! Now I'm turning 31, and in 9 more years, which goes by very fast now, I'll be turning 40! HOLY CRAP! Well, today was great, I woke up around 8amish, while Brandon slept in (of course!) I read all my emails and checked MySpace/Facebook for all my messages. Then seperated my dirty clothes from Vegas and watched RENT. Brandon finally crawled out of bed around 11:30am. By that time I spoke with my sister Marisa for a good 30 minutes. LOL! Brandon headed home, I lazied around a little bit longer before showering and heading to Mom and Dad's for my Birthday Dinner at 4pm. Mom was babysitting Kylie because she couldn't attend Daycare being so sick as she is. We hung out, talked a little, Mom made dinner and it was delicious. We made it early because I was starving and figured my friends were taking me out for drinks. Well, no one ever called! So, I'm sitting at home, catching up on shows I dvr'ed and eating some birthday cake that was made by my fabulous friend Kelly! THANKS GIRL! Tomorrow I'm going to see BRIDE WARS with Matt and Karie. So far nothing else has been planned, so I'm doing what I want to do by myself! No one is gonna make me as happy as I want to be but ME!

Thanks to all who emailed me an e-card (Marisa, Aunt Jeri, Amia) and all the well wishes on MySpace and Facebook! 31 is just great so far! LOL

Las Vegas Trip...

2009-01-07T12:44:00.000-08:00

OK so I'm sitting in the hotel room, waiting for Brandon to get dressed. I thought I would post a little something to update you all.

So we arrived on Sunday, staying at the Monte Carlo Hotel and Casino. We had 3 Free nights, Thank God! Anyway, so we headed to Gipsy Nightclub that night to see our friend Bryan Watkins, aka SHANNEL perform. He has his own drag show, excuse me, Female Impersonator show. Of course he was amazing. Towards the end of the night, this strange guy came up to us and started a conversation. He was from South Africa and a white guy. Huh, that was weird. So, he was all over Brandon and believe it or not, he came back to our hotel with us. Let's just end this part saying, I was gambling downstairs by myself, while the guy and Brandon were up in the room. Yes, my heart was broken, but OH WELL! I didn't get to sleep at all that night because I kept crying and just couldn't do it.

Monday was OK, he slept in and I was in the casino by 11am. We really didn't do anything that day. My ex Vick lives here and we met up for dinner with him at Outback. DELICIOUS! It was such a good night, seeing him and talking. We shared many stories of our past and laughed. This totally made me feel better and got me out of my funk. Tuesday, we headed downtown to walk Fremont and sign up for all the Players Club and got some free crap. We had some drinks, and had a 99 cent Hot Dog! YUM! You know me and cheap hot dogs. It was great! Then we left to head out to Summerlin to meet my friend Jennifer and her boyfriend Brad for dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. Even YUMMIER! We laughed, we told stories., it made me miss my friends so much. Last night we got a voicemail from the hotel, informing us that we qualify for an additional free night. So we took up that offer! We're returning now on Thursday instead of Wednesday today. Now today we are planning on seeing the Tigers at MGM, Lions at the Mirage, and just keep it low key.

We'll see how today, tonight and tomorrow go. Maybe I'll get enough balls to tell him how much I was hurt by Sunday night. I'll keep you all posted.

Oh and the interviews I was here for, went well. But I dont think 1 is very promising. But I'l keep my chin up and try each and everyday for something. Love to all!!!

Happy New Year Wishes!

2008-12-31T09:44:00.000-08:00

2008 has definately been a memorable year for everyone, especially for me. I started the year off thinking I was going to have a new opportunity with a new employer, and I hoped that the year would be the year I would meet someone to be by my side as a life partner. Many of you know that I was laid off from the employer on December 8th, and the love life thing didn't go so well as I had hoped. But please, I do not regret a single thing I did and or said. I am who I am and I am high maintenance. I do what I do because I know the battle is worth fighting for. I say what I say because I usually know I am right. I bend over backwards to the special someone I think I have fallen in love with. I try my hardest to maintain a simple structure of a life. I am not saying life should be or is easy, trust me I know that it is far from that. But all I ask if for a simple chance in life to get a little easier, whether it be within my career or possibly in my love life. So, I sit here, writing this and dedicating 2009 to ME! I need to do what I need to do to make me happy. First find a job and work as hard as I can to be happy within whatever I find. I need to quit smoking, which should be easy for me right now since I have come down with a chest congestion and can hardly breathe as it is. I need to get my fatass into the gym and work out, lose this "baby weight" I gain when Marisa got pregnant! (Ha Ha, sorry I had to use some sort of an excuse!) And once and for all I need to make ME happy! I am so tired of trying to make other people happy, when I should be fighting to make ME happy! So, here it is, my declaration of happiness for myself in 2009! May we all prosper and enjoy much happiness in our lives in the new year. President Elect Obama will be soon enough President Obama come January 20th. And that day, the world will all be much happier and safer knowing we have someone who want to MAKE CHANGE! I Love You all! Happy New Year!

A Touch Of Good Luck...

2008-12-22T12:45:00.000-08:00

So, I have a second interview tomorrow with the Discount Dance Supply company. I also just set up a telephone interview for Monday, December 29th with HOT TOPIC. And I just set up an interview for SHOOOZ in Las Vegas for Monday, January 5th. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE everyone cross your fingers and hope I land one of these jobs.

***And for everyone concerned about how I am going to pay for a hotel in Vegas. Well, I received 3 Complimentary nights at the Monte Carlo Hotel and Casino last time I was staying there. So I'm using that offer during my interview period. YAY!***

Where Am I Going?

2008-12-19T09:25:00.001-08:00

OK, so it's Friday morning and I wanted to post a little something to update everyone who reads my blog.

I'm still Unemployed and desperately searching for something. I have applied everywhere from Ann Taylor Loft to Hot Topic, from Harley Davidson Las Vegas to Michael Kors in Palm Springs. I did have a telephone interview for the Store Manager position for Michael Kors, but haven't heard back from them. Also, I received emails showing interest from Hot Topic and AAA. I placed phone calls to both, but no return phone calls.

I currently still am selling some of my things (tv's, surround systems, etc.) From that, no hits either. I guess these times are really hard! So keep your fingers crossed and hopefully I will land back on my feet soon.

Wish Me Luck....

2008-12-15T10:12:00.001-08:00

So today I have an interview with a clothing store, Discount Dance in Anaheim. They sell dancewear. I know I know, BUT it's a job opportunity and can't pass it up. I'm also looking to drive out tomorrow to Las Vegas to see if I can turn in some applications and also set up some interviews. To stay in Vegas right now, you can get a room $12.50 a night. Now THAT is a deal!

Everyone please wish me luck on my ventures! As they say in A CHORUS LINE, "God I hope I get it! I hope I get it!"

Why Me?

2008-12-08T17:10:00.000-08:00

So, as you know I have been unhappy and struggling working for HURLEY for a few months now. I have had my ups and definately my downs. Well, today was the end! My boss George wrote me up last week for insubordination, and this morning I was terminated! He claims that he just didn't feel I could be coached anymore to improve my attitude and my job performance. And he felt that I wasn't capable enough to run my store. So, after discussions with HR, they decided it would be best to terminate my employment.

Right now I am finding myself in a HUGE dark place and feel so alone. I have no other choice right now but to move back in with my parents and search each day for a new job. I filed for unemployment as well this morning. Hopefully that will kick in soon because I do have bills I need to continue to pay. I just hope that I will be able to cover them all with what I receive. And I keep my fingers crossed that I will be able to find a decent job right now, considering the state of where this country is in right now. Keep me in your thoughts through this month and hope I land something soon.

Requests From Readers/Followers....

2008-11-23T08:41:00.001-08:00

Last year I decided that my life is full of everything I need and want, an amazing loving family with new additions each year it seems, a good job that pays my bills, somewhat good friends that I can depend on and talk to, and a dog that lays next to me each night ever if I'm sick off my ass! So, each year the Holidays hit and we all scramble around to figure out what we can buy one another to celebrate the special day. Well, I have a simple request that I think many will find enlightening. I have a friend, Manuel Miranda, who has a non profit organization, HANDING OUT HOPE. My simple request is, that instead of paying $20.00 or more on a gift for myself to enjoy, I wish that you donate that money to his organization to help with needing children and families who really could use our help. If you would like to read up on the organization, check out www.handingouthope.org I've decided that each year it will be my mission to help out with this organization, to get as many people aware of what they are trying to achieve, and to show that they are trying to make a difference in the world. So please, look inside yourself and donate as much as you can, not only to help the HOH efforts but to also make my wish come true.

24 Hour Bug!

2008-11-23T08:33:00.000-08:00

OK, so I have been working my butt off at work trying to get prepared for the Black Friday Madness Shopping! Last week I was working double shifts, 9am-9pm. I was tired and drained mentally. Well Friday, Dad came to my store to do some construction on some fixtures I had and believe it or not Renee, my boss, decided to come in that morning as well. So basically I was stressed, scared and tired. Well, the day was going good, I worked like a little bee and didn't have to stay to do a double shift. So, mid-way through the day my stomach started to hurt a little and I knew something was wrong. Boy was I right! I got home around 9pmish, and I threw up the rest of the night! NO BUENO! I guess my immune system was down because of me working so much, and its not exactly like I eat right and follow any schedule. So, my bad, I learned my lesson, and will NOT make that mistake again.

So Much To Say....

2008-11-10T10:40:00.000-08:00

OK, well it's been awhile since I posted anything, so here you all go:

~ I am so very happy to be alive and see history being made! Yes, I am speaking about Obama! The first african american president, and I was watching the tv as it was announced. I screamed, I cried, I laughed, I believed! After 01-20-09, the world is going to be on a path to becoming a better place to live!

~ I am also very sad! We celebrate a victory with Obama, but we also are recognizing a loss. Prop 8 was passed with a Yes. Which denys myself and every gay, lesbian and transgender their right to EQUAL RIGHTS! Not only was it about marriage, but it was being acknowledge as a person on this Earth who matters. My personal feeling is this: Fine, allow Prop 8 to pass. If I am not recognized by the state and the government as an equal citizen, than I shouldn't have to pay taxes every year, I shouldn't have to watch heterosexuals on tv or in person be allowed to make out, I feel that heterosexuals should ONLY be allowed to marry once because the bible doesn't not promote divorce! People need to think about what they are doing before denying people their civil and equal rights. Yes, we are protesting every night since the night Prop 8 was passed with a Yes vote. But let me tell you, this is only the beginning of something even bigger. We will not be silenced so soon and so quickly! We are here, and we want EQUALITY!
***NO MORE talk about politics right now, because I'm starting to get heated!!!***

~ On a better note, just last night I had dinner with Ana, Rocky, Matt and Alex. Alex brought his new boyfriend, Alex and had also invited his family. So there was a total of like 12-13 people. It was nice, although the reason for the dinner was to see Alex and meet his new boyfriend. I was able to say HELLO to Alex and his boyfriend but that was about it. I was not about to fight for "talk time with Alex" with his family. I just felt it wasn't the best dinner we could have had together but it was nice to see him. He's happy, he's healthy, and thats all anyone could ask for. Ana is definately pregnant! I am just so very happy for her to see a new chapter in her life and in her married life to begin. Having a child is going to be so fun, and also so hard. But Ana is a strong woman, hard headed at times, but will overcome any obsticals that come about! She is NOT one to fail. Of course Rocky is doing good as well. He is still the shy young man he was when I first met him years ago. But no matter what, he is in my heart because he is who he is! And he makes my AMIA happy, and that's all that matters!

~ As for Brandon, well if you wanna know more, you're gonna have to email me! I'd rather not post anymore about this. SORRY!

~ Toby was taken to the Vet Clinic this past Saturday (THANK YOU KARIE!). He has a skin irritation on his rear end. So we got some medicine to put on it 3 times a day and Toby is now required to wear a CONE around his head so he doesn't lick or bite at it. LOL! He is so miserable because he runs around and the cone doesn't quite miss the corner of the door frame and he is turned around. It's so sad but so funny at the same time. I Love Him but I laugh everytime.

~ Today, I have an interview for a Store Manager position at the Vitamin Shoppe. I know, I know NOTHING about vitamins and it's a total different retail atmosphere. BUT the best thing about it, is that it's less than 5 minutes from my apartment. So I could save so much money on gas, plus I could even buy a bike and teach myself how to ride it, then ride it to work! But we'll see, I mean I need to know about the pay, and all the other details. Once I get that, I will post an update!

2 Weeks Late...

2008-10-29T10:02:00.000-07:00

OK, well I am finding myself on my couch (Thanks Aunt Jeri!), watching tv, and I thought I better BLOG about a very important week for me. 2 weeks ago, I had the chance to go see Marisa, Shawn and Baby Inara in Colorado. I arrived on a Monday, the same day Marisa and Shawn were arriving back from Las Vegas. We planned the flights so that we would be at the airport at the same time, good thinking too. Of course my flight was a little delayed but it was all good. I got to be present to witness Shawn's bad luck! The airline lost his luggage! LOL It actually got placed on the next flight out of Las Vegas for Colorado. Too funny! Only with Shawn would this happen. Anyway, we drove back to their house, which can I say, is PERFECT! Not too big, not too small, just the perfect size for my beautiful lil sister! This house though, is NOT for Marisa and Shawn though, because Inara runs the house. OMG! Inara is a mover. The funny thing is, she has to walk with her hands and arms up in the air. I guess she needs to do that to keep her balance, until she really gets the walking down. Inara has grown so much, and is getting so big, I can't believe it. Sorry Marisa, but this trip out was mainly for her, not you! LOL

Waking up for the few mornings I was there, was the best part of the trip. Knowing that she was already awake and eating, and hopefully waiting for me to come join her, was awesome! I would call her name from around the corner and she would get all giggly. It was great. I helped feed her a few times, but mostly I would walk with her, around the house, around the house, around the house!!! Marisa made dinner a few times, pasta and parmessan chicken, and of course, Marisa's famous tacos. Everything was delicious! Oh and guess what everyone? I even began to eat avacado while I was away! YAY! I'm a big boy now. But everyone, don't push me to eat guacamole, I'm not exactly that big yet. LOL

We did get a chance to go to My Gym, a baby gym for Inara. Marisa and I did some Halloween decorating. We also got a chance to try this new restaurant, THE COUNTER. It's a build your own hamburger restaurant. It was AWESOME! (Aunt Jeri, didn't you want to try this one out?) We also got a chance to walk around the Park Meadows Mall, which I am looking to possibly get a job in. Yes, I said it. I'm truly considering moving to Denver. The reasons: to save money on rent, to pay off as much debt as I can, to be closer to Inara and Marisa, and of course to get out of this ridiculous state of California. Too much drama, too many of the same faces, too many selfish people. But thats another blog I think!

All in all, my trip out was amazing. I was so happy to see everyone (Barb, Kristi, Thane, Avery, Shawn). BUT my trip was for Marisa and Inara. Since Marisa moved, I have missed her more and more. And it feels like a void now is in my life because, she just isn't up the street. But I know she is only a phone call away. I LOVE YOU MARISA!

How Could This Be?

2008-10-09T23:30:00.000-07:00

So after a week of being so happy, having Brandon come back into my life. Tonight, everything just fell apart! We had a date tonight, to attend my friend Matt's show, BAT BOY the Musical. I usually get a "Good Morning" text from Brandon. But I received nothing this morning. I just figured he was busy at work and that he would text me later on. I heard nothing from him. We spoke last night about tonight's plans, so he couldn't have forgotten. I text him and said, "I haven't heard from you today. I hope you're not bailing out on me." I heard nothing. I waited till about 5:30pm, when I knew he would be off of work, to get real worried. I got ready for the date and waited. We had to leave my apartment by 6:45pm, and he knew that. Well, I left my house at 6:50pm, alone and disappointed. I never heard from Brandon, no text and no phone call. I cried all the way to the theater and kept asking, "Why would he do this? How could this be?" We were connecting on so many levels and I thought I had met someone who knew me better than anyone, considering we shared a past together. But once again, my hopes and dreams, not to mention my feelings were crushed. Why does this keep happening to me? What did I do to this world to deserve such punishment? If I'm meant to live a life alone, than please someone just tell me. I am NOT a bad person. All I ever wanted was for someone to fall in love with. Is that such a bad thing to ask for? People always tell me, just be patient. Well, I am TIRED of waiting! These are the times I wish I could just crawl into bed and stay there for days.

A WICKED Date!

2008-10-06T08:55:00.000-07:00

OK, so after a weird BUT interesting experience last night at Disneyland with Brandon, we spoke on the phone till 2:30am. We talked about everything, what we wanted in a relationship, what we expect to get from another man, and what exactly we want in life. We decided to still get together on Sunday for our first official date. So here's that story:

Sunday morning I woke and had to clean my apartment because it's been neglected. I locked Toby up and went to town. I vacuumed, I scrubbed, I rearranged, and I of course drank my morning coffee watching CHICAGO on tv. After talking to Brandon and hearing his idea of possibly going to Griffith Park and thye Getty Museum for our date, I jumped on the computer and did some research. Since there was a concert at the Greek Theater, going to the Observatory wasn't a good idea since traffic and parking would be hell! And the Getty Museum I didn't feel was a good place to go on a first date. So, I went to plan B. Brandon is all about having a man listen to what he has to say, and for that man to respect his wishes. Well I totally agree with that, a man should respect your wishes and listen to what you say. Anyway, we talked about him never being to a Broadway show before but he has always wanted to go, and the #1 show he wanted to see was WICKED. I checked online and bought us 2 tickets to see WICKED that night. I called Brandon and told him we needed to meet for an early dinner, and then I would be taking him to our "surprise" date. Brandon showed up at 4pm at my place and we left for dinner. I drove, since I knew the plans. We went to dinner at LINO'S Italian Restaurant. The funny thing about dinner was, we were the only ones in the restaurant. We talked about the past, connecting on so many levels, it was an awesome dinner date. I am so very happy that Brandon has resurfaced into my life. Moving on. After dinner we drove out to Hollywood, and he was clueless on where we were going. Once we got to the parking lot for the theater, he figured it out. I couldn't tell if he was truly excited or just trying to act excited. We got inside and actually had pretty good seats. The show of course was amazing and Brandon LOVED it. There were so many times I wanted to hold his hand or wrap my arm around him. BUT I refrained from that since it was our first date and don't want to move too fast. After the show we talked all the way home about the show, which showed me that he definately was excited to see and share this experience with me. YES! I did good! :-) Well we got to my place and he came in to use the restroom. He also wanted to meet Toby who wasn't too happy to see some stranger in the apartment. I held Toby at first so he would know it was OK. I placed in down on the carpet and that was a mistake! LOL His hair stood up on his back and he attacked Brandon. Snapping at him, barking, I felt so bad. I grabbed Toby and was pissed. This is NO WAY to be when people visit me at the apartment. I guess someone is going to be getting some training and SOON! Toby finally was OK with Brandon, but was watchful. I gave Brandon a treat to give to Toby and then he was OK with him. LOL! I was embarressed but laughed at the same time. Anyway, he only stayed for a few minutes but those were special minutes to me. He had to be up at 6am for work, so he had to drive home and head to bed. We hugged and shared a Good Night kiss, and he left. Wow, what I night! As I walked him out, he asked what I was doing this week. I told him I worked but my next day off was Thursday. He asked if I had plans, I told him yes because I was going to see Matt in BAT BOY the musical in San Pedro. I asked him if he was interested in going with me, he replied, Sure. So we have another date set up already. Believe it or not, I just can't seem to wipe the smile off my face!

Now last night, was some WICKED Date!

Gay Days With Brandon

2008-10-05T10:25:00.000-07:00

So, last night I met up with Brandon at Gay Days, at Disneyland. He was there with a "friend" named Ryan. I asked earlier in the day if I could join them, or was he on a date? Brandon told me it wasn't a date, so I fixed my schedule to meet up with them at the park. Well I arrived at the park right before 8:00pm. I waited outside the gate of Disney's California Adventure Theme Park, for Brandon and Ryan to come meet me. As soon as I saw Brandon, a rush of emotions ran through my body. I felt like 13 years hadn't past since I last saw him in high school. And all the feelings I had for him back then, were bubbling inside me, like they had never left. I looked away to compose myself and to just take in the moment. I turned around to see him again and he came running over to only jump into my arms and to give me the most comfortable, loving, and embraceful hug I have received in awhile. I almost didn't want to let him down. But I did, and once I did, I realized something that ruined the rest of the evening for us. Ryan, is also interested in Brandon, and thought them two were on a date. So, everytime Brandon and I tried to talk, walk next to each other, walk arm in arm, there was Ryan, trying to pry us apart or to put his two cents in. Once we walked into the park, I ran in my friend Matt. And believe it or not, I miss him dearly! I am a horrible friend, who is responsible for the distance in our friendship. It was GREAT to see Mattee, and I am going to be a better friend and respect our friendship and get together with him more. Well, back to Brandon! So we all decided to form one whole group, Matt's and mine. I took a step back and let Ryan have his time with Brandon, because I know how horrible you feel when you share feelings for someone, and then realize that they dont have the same feelings for you. And you realize this in a public place, where there are tons of people, but you feel so all alone. I've been there and done that, and the scary part is, it happened at Disneyland. So, I was a bigger man, and I just was there, quiet and focused on Brandon. What was the reason I was there? Brandon! Why did I know I was going to be put into this situation earlier in the day? Brandon! Brandon told me that he recently broke up with his boyfriend and that he is at the point of dating right now, and not too anxious to jump back into a relationship. I respect that and understand where he is coming from. He did tell me that when he dates, he dates a few people at a time. I told him that, I am NOT that type of guy. When I meet someone and have an interest in them, I date them only. I believe in order to meet that special true match, you need to focus on that person and dedicate your full attention to what you are trying to build. When you have too many options, you lose the true focus on what you are ultimately wanting. I accept what he wants, and I will push forward. I dont know why or what it is, but there is just something about Brandon that I connect with. When I look into his eyes, I see something special. When he is close by, I get a warm loving feeling. Last night was definately a strange but good night! I got to see Brandon, and this was the beginning of something. I dont know if its going to be a good thing, or what, but I'm all about in trying! Wish me luck!

The Worst Night....

2008-10-03T09:36:00.000-07:00

So, last night I dont think I have EVER felt so alone, so depressed, and cried as much as I did. I had a scheduled date with someone from high school, but unfortunately the date didn't happen. He had to stay later at work for a meeting and then got home, and he fell asleep. I sat at home waiting, watching tv. I cracked open a bottle of wine, and 3 hours later, I had finished off a few more. I wont posted the total number of bottles, but just know, I emptied my wine refrigerator and I have a bad headache this morning!

I just don't understand what the problem is with men these days. You have conversations with them, and you connect. They tell you they want to meet someone to spend the rest of their lives with, someone to come home to, someone to go out with, someone to grow old with. This is EXACTLY what I want. So you set up the date and time for your first date, and then somehow they either have something come up, they had to stay later at work, or they just simply don't call. I'm sorry, but if you're truly looking for someone to be with, then you do whatever you need to do to make that date. And if you need to sacrifice sleep or stay out a little later, then you do that. But I guess thats just me. I'm looking for something real. But it makes me wonder now, is there something wrong with me? Or do men just don't know what they really want out of a relationship? Can it really be this difficult to fall in love?

Sorry, those questions came from my "Carrie Bradshaw" personality! No one knows love, like Carrie Bradshaw!

SEND KENLEY HOME!!!

2008-10-01T22:54:00.000-07:00

OK, so what were the judges thinking by keeping Kenley and having her again compete for a chance to show at Bryant Park? I'm sorry, but to have a dress that looks like a freakin' lizard walk down the runway, and to move to the next level is ridiculous! I am so angry, so frustrated, and so disappointed in Project Runway!

Project Runway Update....

2008-09-25T07:44:00.001-07:00

OK, so I watched last night's episode of Project Runway this morning. I am SOOOO upset that they let Suede go over Kenley. First off, I am NO fan of Suede in the first place, but his design actually met the challenge, Kenley's didn't! She is annoying, she has no taste in her designs, her choices are completely based from the 50's. I am so upset and disappointed that she is moving on to the next challenge. On top of all this, I feel she was rude and sarcastic to Tim Gunn when he came to the workroom for a visit. He is a fashion legend and needs, excuse me, DESERVES, all the respect and attention when he comes into the room. He knows what the work and the world of fashion is, any advice he could give you would and should be taken into deep consideration! I know I would listen to every word he says, if I was a designer. So, I'm praying after the next challenge I will see Kenley leaving the show, otherwise I might be tuning out before the end.

New Shows....

2008-09-24T06:52:00.000-07:00

OK, so this week, new tv shows start their new seasons and also new series began. This season there are way too many shows I wanna see! Here is a list of the shows I will be tuning in to see:

Sundays: Desperate Housewives ~ Who doesn't LOVE the women of Wisteria Lane? But this
season, a new actor joins the cast, and I do love me some
GALE HAROLD. He was Brian Kinney on Showtime's
QUEER AS FOLK.
Brothers and Sisters ~ 2 words, Sally Fields! Need I say more?
Mondays: HEROES ~ If you watch the show, you know why I watch it. I love sci-fi and the
story about having extraordinary powers. Everyone HATES him, but I
am totally in love with Zachary Quinto, SYLAR on the show.
Tuesday: 90210 ~ So, the main reason I wanted to see this show again (because I watched the
original series back in the 80's) was to see Jennie Garth and Shannen
Doherty reprise their roles and Kelli and Brenda. It was great to see both of
them back at West Beverly Hills High School. The bonus to watching this
show is all the young HOT actors!
Fringe ~ J.J. Abrams has done it again. This show is sort of like X-Files, but better.
In order for you to know what I'm talking about, check it out. You wont be
disappointed. Am I right Karie?
Wednesday: Knight Rider ~ This series isn't a remake of the old show. Instead, Michael
Knights son is the main character and is in the driver's seat inside
KITT. It follows the same storylines as before, but has better
effects and graphics.
Private Practice ~ The spinoff series from Grey's Anatomy, it stars Kate Walsh
as Dr. Addison Montgomery. She moved to LA to start a new
life and a new career, but still gets into trouble with the men in
LA. Hot guys, hot scenes, hot series!
Thursday: Ugly Betty ~ America Ferrera, Vanessa Williams, Michael Urie, and Judith Light,
now that is a cast anyone and everyone would LOVE to be a part of!!!
Grey's Anatomy ~ McSteamy! McSteamy! McSteamy! Please tell me you're
shirtless again this season???
CSI: Las Vegas ~ So, if you saw last season, you know Warwick Brown was killed
off the show. The season beings with the search to find his killer,
so it's intense. Sara Sidle comes back to lend a hand, and Gil
Grissom is not going to be in charge of the Lab anymore. They
are brining in Lawrence Fishburne to take over, which I am NOT
too happy about. We'll see how he does, but he is NO Grissom!
ER ~ It's the final season of this awesome medical drama show. I will definately be
dvr'ing or tuning in!
Friday: Ghost Whisperer ~ Jennifer Love Hewitt won my heart back in the days of PART OF
FIVE. The stories are great, kind of creepy, which I LOVE. Plus it
has Cameryn Manheim and HOTTIE David Conrad!

HAPPY WATCHING EVERYONE!!!

Here's A Laugh On Me...

2008-09-10T17:47:00.000-07:00

How could Mom and Dad NOT know about me back then???

Do You Remember???

2008-09-07T16:18:00.001-07:00

Does anyone recognize this young lady? Mom and I found this picture and had to post it! It's all out of LOVE Aunt Jeri!

The End Of Something Special...

2008-09-05T22:07:00.000-07:00

This Sunday, RENT the rock opera/musical on Broadway will be closing! This is a HUGE deal for so many, because this show has touched so many hearts in the world. I remember seeing RENT for the first time, and I remember laughing, crying, cheering, and feeling so much love. I know on behalf of the Broadway community, this show will be missed very much and I think we all know, it wont be long till it's back on Broadway!

To all the actors and actress' who have been a part of this show, THANK YOU!

~"NO DAY BUT TODAY!"

I'm Sad...

2008-09-03T22:22:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I had a meeting with my boss and we discussed some concerns I am having with work. Mainly my pay scale and how I am WAY underpaid. There are many options and opportunities on the table for me, and I am excited to see if anything becomes of what we talked about. An opportunity for a promotion has been presented to me. We are opening up a "mock store" at Hurley corporate office. It's going to be the model of what all the new stores will look like going forward. It's going to be the place where we set visual merchandising standards and putting together visual floorsets for the stores. George, my boss, has asked me to attend and lead the training with merchandising for a select group of invited guests. The only problem is, this training will take place the same weekend as Inara's 1st Birthday Party! I spoke with Marisa and told her everything and that unfortunately I won't be able to make it out to Colorado for the party. BUT Southwest has given me a voucher for a full year to use as I please in the amount I paid. So, I am looking to make a trip out soon, once the calendar at work is cleared. I am so sad I wont be able to share in this special day, but I know I have to do what I have to do to improve my life and to establish my career. I'm sure TONS of pictures will be taken and I will make sure I call Inara on her special day and sing to her, her birthday song!

Funny Little Story....

2008-08-14T20:33:00.001-07:00

So today I took my car in for service to Fairway Ford. It went in for a service check, oil change, etc. I hung out with Dad most of the day. Dad made me dinner (hamburger patties and stir fry veggies! YUM!) Lisa and Kylie came over as well and we all ate together. I received a phone call earlier from Fairway Ford stating they needed to keep my car overnight because there was an oil leak that needed to be repaired. Thank God I had Mom's car to drive. So, as I'm leaving I realize, CRAP I have to take Toby home in Mom's car! She isn't going to like it but oh well. I packed up, got the key and started to drive home. As I'm almost to Valley View, I suddenly began to realize, my house key is on my key ring with my car keys. I am such a dork! I made a u-turn back to Mom and Dad's to see if Mom left my house key at home. Dad said it was in the car on a tractor keychain. I dug and dug and finally found it. What the hell would I have done if I didn't make Mom a spare key? I would have been SHIT OUT OF LUCK! Pop and I had a good laugh while Toby layed in the back of Mom's car sleeping. So, not only do I not have my car, I don't have my own house key, and I am driving around with Kylie's carseat. Wow, when the hell did I get OLD???

Just thought I would share a funny story and a great mental picture. Love to all!!!

New Commitment....

2008-08-14T07:36:00.000-07:00

OK, so starting next week, I am planning on hitting 24 Hour Fitness, to get my fat ass out of the house and back into shape. An associate of mine, who's becoming a bodybuilder is going to put a workout plan together for me to follow. He also wants to put together a food list on what I can and can't eat! I told him, "One thing at a time buddy! I'll cut down portions but NO ONE can tell me, NO Taco Bell!" LOL

So, hopefully by Christmas I will be in a new state of mind and looking a lot thinner and healthier! Now I just have to stay away from the bar and quit smoking again. DAMN IT! Am I that strong? I cross my fingers and pray that I am.

A Pattern...

2008-08-10T21:36:00.000-07:00

So, after much consideration, I have decided to break it off with Mike. He accompanied me to my friend Jennifer Metz's wedding yesterday and there was simply no connection anymore. Which is a good thing considering all of a sudden, I have 2 other gentlemen pursuing me, and I'm pursuing 1 myself. Here are the details:
Bachelor #1: His name is Shaun. He's 32, a bartender now at my favorite bar, The Tin Lizzie Saloon. We talk, we laugh, we have a lot of fun together. He recently just broke up with his BF, so he's still kinda hung up on that. I see myself falling for him each time I see him. I know, I should back off because I don't want to be the "rebound guy" but he is just so darn good looking. He is looking to fall in love and wants to settle down into a long term relationship. Sometimes though, I get the feeling he's just not interested, but then there are times when I just see the chemistry between us. I've made the decision to stay away from the bar for awhile, or maybe just cut my visits down to once a week (versus every Wed/Fri/Sat nights!) I'm going to wait to hear from him, instead of me contacting him. From that, we will see if he has the same interest in me, that I have for him.
Bachelor #2: His name is Kyle. He's 27/28, works for Neiman Marcus in Newport Beach (Fashion Island). I've known him since I started going to the bar, but never knew he was attracted to me. He started texting our mutual friend Kati May and asking her all kinds of questions about me. The night she told me, Shaun and I were on a "Group Date" with a few friends. It was an odd situation because I have been focusing my time on Shaun, and now here comes Kyle. He is a very sweet guy. I just don't know if there is a "spark" there between us. But I am more than willing to see what happens. After all, if not the beginning of a relationship, then the starts of a great friendship!
Bachelor #3: His name is Brad. He's 25, and in between jobs right now. But when he was employed he was a dog groomer. He just moved here from West Hollywood. He was tired of the WeHo scene so wanted to come check out what the OC had to offer. He actually saw me at the bar last night and told a friend I was cute, who passed the message onto me. There was the introduction, and then they all left me alone with him. So we sat, chatted and I was uncomfortable. But it was nice just talking and getting to know someone. (Although Shaun was there working and watching the whole time. Giving the "glare" that people give when they aren't too happy that you're talking to someone else! LOL Or maybe Shaun just needs glasses? IDK!) As of right now, I dont plan to pursue anything with Brad because I have too much going on right now, I couldn't juggle another guy!

OK, so are we seeing "A Pattern?" First I was dating someone named Mike. Now I'm starting to date a Shaun and a Kyle. My name is Michael, so it was weird saying his name or even Mike and I were dating. Marisa married a Shawn, Lisa is dating a Kyle. I was interested in a guy named Brad in Las Vegas who also works for Hurley. The universe is trying to tell me something. Either I'm going to end up with one of these guys, OR that these guys are to be avoided at all cost?

That's it for now. Any advice you can give me would be much appreciated!

Are Relationships a Job?

2008-07-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

So, Mike and I are no longer dating. He hasn't called, emailed or text me for over a week. I have tried and tried to get in touch with him but he never returned anything. So, finally this past Saturday night, he emailed me and said that he felt dating me felt more like a "job" than a relationship. What the hell does that mean? He said he didn't think it was gonna be so much work, to have a relationship. So, he didn't think it was going to work between us. Well, I was shocked, I was confused, I was in awe! I truly really cared for this guy. I thought, wow, here is someone who cares for me for who I am and wants to be with me. Boy, was I played! LOL! But it's cool, I'm over it. He's going to enjoy a long life of loneliness. Relationships are a job, you have to work at it to make it work and to succeed. I know that, my friends and family know that. If he doesn't, that's his fault. In my defense though, I asked and I asked and I asked, to see him. He always had an excuse to not get together, I laid out all day today and got too much sun and am so tired, I have other plans, it's too late and I work early tomorrow, I dont want to drive to Huntington Beach just drive to me. I knew deep down, that this wasn't going to last. Next time I'll trust my instincts and believe what I feel in my heart! Another Life Lesson Learned!

Must See Movie....

2008-07-24T11:12:00.000-07:00

OK, so Tuesday night, a bunch of friends and family went to see the movie version of MAMMA MIA! the musical. I had my doubts at the begining, with the casting. Boy was I pleased! Meryl Streep was AWESOME! The entire cast (minus Pierce Brosnan) was fantastic! I was so impressed by everyone's voice, the comedy that showed with the script, the set location, everything! Once the movie begins, you get thrust into a world of madness and endless laughter. Although there are a few moments of emotional disaster, meaning I cried like a baby! But it's a good thing, crying makes people stronger. Well, if you think it's gonna be a cheesy film, you're wrong. It's a great summer adventure! DEFINATELY GO SEE MAMMA MIA! Two Thumbs Up!

The Begining....

2008-07-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

So, I am so freakin' excited that tonight is the Season 5 Premiere of PROJECT RUNWAY!!! I can't wait to see Heidi, Michael K., the models, and of course the anxious designers. I usually can choose right away who's moving on to the finals. But we'll see what happens tonight.

Good Thing Going....

2008-06-30T09:48:00.000-07:00

So last Friday I had a meeting with the new Retail Director and it went so well. I walked away feeling even better and more confident that my decision to leave Lane Bryant and join Hurley, was the right one! HUGE changes are happening at work and they are all for the good. More opportunities will be available for me to make more money, move up into corporate, and a chance to travel more. So I am more excited to see these changes happening every week.

I am heading to Las Vegas on Sunday July 6th with Karie. We are doing our yearly Runaway From Work and Family Trip! This is our chance for a few days and nights to go somewhere where we wont be bothered by friends, family and most of all WORK! Of course we will have our cell phones, but I plan to take Karie's away from her since her family doesn't know when to stop and leave her alone. Unless it's an emergency, they do not need to call her!!! We dont have anything planned but to relax and have some fun. But I think we plan to sleep most of the time. LOL We're staying at the Monte Carlo for the first time. And we're excited to check it out.

Lastly, I wanna say something about my last blog. It was NOT meant to make anyone feel bad, or to take it too personally. But as I said, this is a place for me to vent my frustrations about work, family and my personal life. People through the years have made comments to me about myself going back to school, but unfortunately it's not in the cards for me. I am in a place in life where I am comfortable with what I know, and building a 12 year career in retail managment, I am more confident in myself in climbing the ladder of success. So I apologize if I have made anyone upset by anything I have said. You have the right to say what you want, as I do too. I may not like it, it may be the right thing to say, but we each have that right to vent or fight back.

I LOVE YOU AUNT JERI! :-)

Previous Comment That Was Made....

2008-06-25T11:24:00.001-07:00

A few blogs back I received a comment about myself not going anywhere without a degree. Well, this comment has stuck with me and has been under my skin since I read it. It hurt! BAD! But you know what, this is how I feel. SCREW YOU! Lots of people get places and move up the employment later without college degrees. I started this blog to vent, to get my feelings out so I can move past it. I complain and complain about my job, but who the hell hasn't complained about their job. I tried going to college, but it wasn't for me. So, if you dont wanna read about me complaining about how hard it is to live, how pissed I am about work, how I hate people who are ignorant, than maybe this isn't a blog for you to be reading.

Another Day....

2008-06-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

So today is Wednesday, June 25th. I am sitting on my couch, my back is aching and I am gearing up to meet this guy at Disneyland today. His name is Paul, we met online and have seen each other a few times at my new favorite local gay bar, THE TIN LIZZIE. So, he invited to take me to Disneyland, so we could spend some time together and to get to know one another. I'm excited but also worried because of three things! 1-I HATE kids! 2-I HATE the heat! 3-I HATE crowds! LOL, I know you're saying, then what the HELL are you doing going to Disneyland? LOL Well, he works there so it's free, we're meeting at 4pm so it's not an all day trip, and I haven't been there in awhile.

I also need to fill you in on another guy I met. His name is Mike, 39 years old, has 3 jobs, was married for 17 years, has 3 kids (15,16 & 18). We met online, of course, and met for a late dinner the other night. It was great, we talked, we ate, and we connected. It was a beautiful date and I forgot how good those can be. Mike and I talk everyday and it's weird to have this connection with someone. True, he has a past that comes with him, but he's an overall great guy. Whether or not we work with dating, he's definately going to be a good friend.

Now, for the work drama! My main Retail Manager at corporate, Robert, was fired 2 days ago. Now George, the man who joined the retail team about a month ago is leading the team. George has a great background with experience in the retail world, and he is taking the reins and moving forward. A lot of things are changing and I am loving it. BUT there are a few things I am deeply worried about. My direct boss Renee, is the Area Manager and Store Manager at the Employee Store. She is involved with everything, every little decision that happens with the retail department, she has her say in it. To be honest, she isn't very good at either title. When I came aboard at HURLEY, I had NO training from her, NO set expectations, NO guidance to what needs to happen with the business. I was thrown into the store, to run it as if it was my own business. So I tried, but everytime I wanted to get something done or do something, I was denied permission from Renee. So, as you know I have had no managers in the business for awhile now, I've been busting my ass running the store, working 12 hour shifts. We are promoting 2 associates to manager status, which is already a big help. But now, I can't even hire Sales Associates without discussing it first with Renee. WTF! Am I not a Store Manager? Am I not short handed and need at least 3-4 new associates? Since when does anyone have to clear it through an Area Manager to get anyone hired. After 12 years of this business, I think I know what to look for in a candidate. I know how to see the signs of a good employee. Why am I having to go through hoops to get my store staffed and running back at normal? I am planning on talking to George and to tell him what exactly is going on in Renee's area, and how she is as a boss. SHE SUCKS!!! She has lost over 9 managers in her district within a 6months period. Everyone at the Employee Store wants OUT or will quit because of her. No one within the retail department likes her or how she runs the business. She is excuse after excuse when things go wrong, but takes all the credit when things work. My mind is boggled on how this company hasn't caught on, on how bad of a manager she is. I just hate it when I work with people who carry higher titles than I do, who dont do shit, or does nothing to deserve that title and power! Now I'm NOT saying I am the best person for the job, but I do think I could do a hell of a lot better job than she is doing. BUT WHATEVER! OK, Thanks for letting me vent.

Just My Luck!

2008-06-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

So, yesterday an associate of mine at work came up to me and we had a serious talk. I was informed that there were associates who were leaving earlier then their scheduled times, and having another associate clocking them out so they get their hours. Well, this associate was very upset and when I heard this information, I felt hurt and betrayed. So, to make a long story short, because they were falsifying their time cards, I have to fire my entire management staff plus a few associates. Now this leaves me the ONLY Manager at the store working double shifts, everyday, until I get some help and hire some new people. I am gonna be so freakin' tired!!!

Restless....

2008-06-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

Good Tuesday Morning! How are you all who's reading this? So, yesterday I had a rough day at work. I really don't like knowing that I know more about a job position within the company than the person who has the title. What is it gonna take for the powers above within to realize that she SUCKS at her job? I just don't understand how they can just accept all the failures from her and continue having her employed. But when an associate is late 3 times, they want them fired! I'm so confused! Yes there are so many opportunities within this company, but are they even worth it? That is my problem!

A-21

2008-06-04T07:34:00.000-07:00

That is my new apartment #, A-21. For those of you who have my Heil Avenue address, I am no longer in the Junior 1-Bedroom. I am now in a Full 1-Bedroom 1 Bathroom, with a fireplace, small backyard, full kitchen (which I bought my very first refrigerator for!). Lets just say, the Living Room and Dining Room were ths size of my old apartment, so I have TONS of room now, which I am loving, and so is Toby! I have a few more boxes to get rid of but once I do, I will snap some photos to post.

Disclaimer: This update was specifically for Aunt Jeri! Miss you!

These Are A Few Of My Favorite Things...

2008-05-19T09:10:00.000-07:00

Why are you disturbing me during feeding time? You know I am a lean mean eating machine!!!

Baby Inara during Bath Time! She's saying, "UNCLE SPANKY, I AM A STAR!!!"

While visiting my sister and her family in Colorado, since she was unaware of the visit, she wasn't able to prep a bed for me, so I had no choice but to snuggle with Abbey on the floor! Boy do I LOVE this dog, although she wouldn't budge and share the bed with me!!! :-)

Desperate Monday Morning....

2008-05-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

OK, so I claim this, "Desperate Monday Morning" because all day I plan to chat about DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES! Did you all see the Season Finale last night? HOLY CRAP! I was shocked at the end. 5 Years Later? What the heck? OK, so does this mean, next season may be its last? Oh, and what the hell happened to Mike Delfino? Susan is now with a new man, played by Gale Harold of QUEER AS FOLK fame? That I'm kind of excited about because I think the gay world fell in love with him, but still! Oh Marc Cherry, next season better be one of the BEST or else I am going to be very upset!

Busy Week!!!

2008-05-05T09:14:00.000-07:00

So, I'm working like MAD this week! We have received so much shipment I am going BANANAS! But its good to keep me busy or else I get lazy. The weather isn't the best either, low clouds and kinda chilly.

I do have good news! Toby is now not being locked in his crate. He now understands that tearing up the house is not the solution. So these past 2 weeks, I have been letting him roam the apartment while I've been at work. The only thing he has gotten ahold of was a pen he kinda chewed. He hasn't had a potty break in the apartment either! YEAH! I am so excited and happy.

Oh and Aunt Jeri, Hector has been out of the country visiting family. So he is still around but our schedules conflicts a lot. The date with Kyle was good. We're still looking to get to know each other more before jumping into a "real" date. Which I think is great because a lot of people go on dates and feeel awkward during the date when they realize that there is NO connection, NO spark between them! LOL So, we're doing something good here.

As far as moving to Las Vegas, it's a NO-GO! How could I ever leave Mom and Dad, not to mention my other sisters Karie and Lisa, and don't forget my Poopie (Kylie). True, I know I will NEVER own anything in real estate here in CA, because it's so ridiculous here. But someday, and that day just hasn't come yet, I will get out of here and move someplace to live and settle down. So, for now I am going to struggle living in southern California and enjoy it while I can. Give me time, it will happen.

Ever Have One Of Those Days???

2008-05-02T10:11:00.000-07:00

Where you wake up and know you have a lot of things to do today and somehow you just can't remember a single damn thing you're suppose to do? TODAY is one of them!!!

An Overdue Update For The Family...

2008-05-01T09:31:00.000-07:00

OK, so this blog posting is mainly for Aunt Jeri and Cousin Kim! I hear from Marisa that they're always asking, "Well how's Spanky doing? I wouldn't have to ask if he would just update his blog!"

Well here I go:

~GYPSY finally ended this past weekend. I am happy and I am sad! Happy because now I can focus on work, getting my free time back, and I can now get a gym membership and start working out to lose some weight. Sad because I made a few friends and will miss seeing them basically everyday. In theater you do make friends during shows, but unfortunately the friendships only usually last for the length of the shows run. One good thing though, on closing night I went to have a drink with some of the cast members/friends. We went to downtown Fullerton and had a good time. It was Kyle, Olivia, and Kaitlyn, the rare few that I miss terribly. Well that night, after long speculation, I found out that Kyle was gay! My friend Matt swore up and down that Kyle was not gay and that I shouldn't even think that about him. So all this time I figured him and Olivia were together, since they were always together and hanging off of one another. Well, he came out to me, and then we totally started clicking and having laughs. So, this Saturday, we're having a "Get To Know Each Other" date! LOL, Olivia is tagging along with a friend, maybe Kaitlyn, so its not too uncomfortable for either of us. So I will post again after that to let you know how it goes.

~Recently I was truly considering moving back to Las Vegas. I have come to realize that money SUCKS in California and unless you have a degree, you get crap for pay. Hence what HURLEY is paying me! I had a meeting with my boss yesterday and told him he is WAY UNDER PAYING ME as a store manager. So he said to give him 60 days till the end of the year, when reviews happen and then he can see what he can do. Now listen, I LOVE HURLEY as a company and Robert has a good intention. But as I told him, I am going to have to do what I have to do to get financially stable, and if that means to take a job somewhere else, so be it. He promised me that in 60 days he would make me another offer, and we will see if its something better. He also stated there are opportunities coming up that I might be able to get into, a full-line store opening in the Laguna Beach/Newport Coast area. Which means more money and a better promotion. So, I'm gonna hang on and see what happens. I'm keeping my fingers crossed because I am so sick of living paycheck to paycheck and struggling each month to get by. I have worked over 12 years in this business and it is about damn time someone takes me seriously! Hurley has a lot of growth opportunity, and I see that and wanna go further. So, Vegas is now on the back burner! I started looking into places to live there, and it was the driving force for me to move. Currently I am paying $995 for a junior 1 bedroom, there I can get a 3 bedroom 2 bath HOUSE with a pool for $1000!!! Now I ask you again, what the hell is keeping me in California. Other than friends and family, NOTHING! Toby could have a backyard to play in, run around and lose some weight, be free. And people would have a place to stay for free too. I guess we'll see what happens in 60 days and wait to see what kind of offer they give me.

~Toby is fabulous. He no longer is tearing up the house. So I leave him out of his crate now. Whats funny is that I leave him out, go to work, and when I get home, he's laying in his crate usually with the door open. I guess thats good in a way, but funny because I figured he'd be laying on the couch or the bed! But he's gaining weight I guess from what everyone says. I think he's fine!

~Ok well I think that catches you up pretty good. Any questions please feel free to leave me a comment and I will answer as best that I can! Hope everyone is well and I will talk with you all soon!

~M

A Memorable Date...

2008-03-23T22:04:00.000-07:00

OK, so after a long day at work, I got home and started checking my emails. I was sitting there when I read an email from a guy named Hector, who I have been emailing and chatting with for a few years now. The timing has NOT been right for us in meeting, so it's never happened. Well last night we chatted again, and came to a point where he asked to meet for a drink. Usually I say NO, it's late and I'm tired. Well, I figured WHAT THE HELL! Instead of sitting my big butt in front of the TV, get up and go meet this guy. And I am SO GLAD I did. Hector is awesome, very sweet, soft spoken, adventurous, kind, courteous, mature, and has BEAUTIFUL eyes! As soon as we were about to walk in, my friend and old boss, Laura walked out and screamed my name! I was shocked and in awe that of all nights I would run into her or someone I knew. But that's the OC for you! LOL

So we went inside and had some drinks, we chatted, as best as we could because the bar was slammed last night. Oh, we went to the TIN LIZZIE SALOON in Costa Mesa. It was a small, very cute bar that I am gonna have to hit up more! I did recognize several guys from online though. Majority of them were guys who said they were not interested in me, so it was a little uncomfortable. But I had a few beers, relaxed and had a GREAT time. We are going to definately meet up again. Hopefully in a more private atmosphere, so we can really get to know one another, without interuptions. There you have it.

Finally An Update....

2008-03-15T14:36:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, sorry I have been so bad with updating my blog. As some of you know I have been slammed with work, stage managing a production of GYPSY at Cypress College, and having a lot of family drama. So, here's a quick lowdown on everything:

Work is great! I love it! BUT I am finding myself still living paycheck to paycheck and not seeing any improvements with my credit card debt. WHY??? Well, for one I didn't get the pay I was expecting to get from HURLEY. And living in CA is the death trap for anyone, unless you are making 7 figures a year! With gas prices sky-high, it only hurts me more and more. All in all though, I do love what I do.

GYPSY at Cypress College has been great fun. I am draining myself of all energy though. Basically running myself into the ground. I get up at 6am everyday to get to HURLEY by 8. I work till 4pmish and then get on the 5 fwy and sit in traffic for over an hour to head right to Cypress College for rehearsal. I'm there around 5:30pm and rehearsal ends at around 11pm. I get home and relaxed by about Midnight, when I crawl into bed with Toby! I THANK GOD for Karie! She checks on him mostly everyday after she gets off work. I can't express how much she means to me. So THANK YOU Karie for everything!

As for the family drama, well its not so much drama. My Dad's older brother, Uncle Vance, passed away and struck the family very hard. My uncle was a dedictaed father and fire fighter. He worked as a Captain for the fire department for over 28 years. Vance suffered a stroke while on his way to a fire. Although we were not too close, I loved him! And seeing him in the hospital before he passed I told him that I Loved Him and that it was OK to let go and to go see Nana and Paka. And to please give them both a kiss for me, I will miss him dearly! But this opened my eyes to something even bigger. Caryn and Jimmy will need us more than they have ever. So I am making it appoint to keep in touch with Cousin Jimmy. Caryn has a family, Jimmy doesn't. So we need to step up and make sure he knows he is NOT alone, that he has family and that we all love him. I can't imagine what it would be like to have lost your mother a few years ago, and to now lose your father. I sit here and can't imagine my life without my parents. My Mom and Dad are my world and I LOVE them!

Quick Update....

2008-01-24T17:49:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone, I am so sorry I haven't been posting. As some of you know I have been busy with the new job plus started at Cypress College as Stage Manager for GYPSY. So my time has been very limited.

I filled you in on the gift my Mother gave me for my birthday. She gave me 2 tickets to see THE COLOR PURPLE. The show was AWESOME! Mom you rock! Such a perfect gift, with a great show, and a memorable experience with my ULTIMATE Best Friend. I Love You Mom!

On Saturday, my true best friends, Karie and Matt, took me to a wonderful dinner at Red Lobster. YUMMIE! You know how I love their fried shrimp. So it was delicious. After they said we were going to someplace in Hollywood. So I figured we were seeing WICKED! True, I've seen it several times BUT there is a new cast in LA right now so I was excited. Anyway, we hit some traffic on the fwy and it seemed Matt was in no hurry to make it on time, which kinda worried me. But I left it in their hands. So, we got off the fwy and passed the Pantages Theater so, I guess there goes my idea. Matt was turning into the Hollywood and Highland shopping Center. My next thought was that we were seeing a taping of a show or going to one of the clubs there. My nerves and curiosity started to spike! So, we get out of the car and both Matt and Karie tell me we were going to be in the Stand-By line for tickets to see KATHY GRIFFIN! HOLY CRAP! She is my all time favorite comedian. I got so excited and started walking with a hop in my step. When got to the front of the theater and who do I see, Tom Pardoe! I was shocked and happy because I thought he was meeting us there to join us. When I asked him, he was like, "No, I have tickets to see the show." OK, guess he's not with us, and it was just a coincidence. We got in line, and Karie then said, We too have tickets and are NOT on stand-by! HOLY MOTHER OF JESUS! I was going to see my favorite red headed, loud mouthed and dirty comedian! We had awesome seats, a lot of laughs (mostly at Britney Spears expense!), lots of hot guys, and a few celebrities. So, for my 30th birthday, I had 2 AMAZING nights to remember. THANK YOU!

And I also must say THANK YOU to all of you who donated to my friends charity HANDING OUT HOPE. It meant a lot to me and I know means so much to him and the rest of the staff. So Thanks again and PLEASE keep them in mind when you're looking to invest in an amazing organization.

OK, I'm blogging while Kent and Tom listen to the cd tracks for the show, and I should be paying attention! OH WELL!

The Color Purple....

2008-01-11T09:20:00.000-08:00

So for my birthday, my beautiful and thoughtful mother bought me tickets to see the musical, THE COLOR PURPLE for tonight. She only could afford 2 tickets and she gave me the option to take whomever I wanted. But of course, there IS ONLY 1 person that I could take. Someone who would love the show as much as I would. Someone who is my best friend, my confidant, my #1 cheerleader in life. Yes, I invited Mom! There is no one else I would rather take than her, to share this awesome experience. Thank You Mom! Thank You!

A New Day...

2008-01-09T09:59:00.000-08:00

OK, so today I turn 30 years old! Never in my dreams did I ever imagine I would be this age. I am VERY excited to reach this point in my life, but at the same time, DAMN I'M OLD! LOL!

Today marks a new day in my life. I started last year believing more and more in myself and good things came my way. So I plan to continue believing and watch myself grow into the real man I can be.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-12-31T22:57:00.000-08:00

OK, so we're about an hour away from 2008! I just wanna say I LOVE everyone and hope 2008 is the best year of all of our lives. I'm starting my new job in 2 days, also gonna start a diet with my best friend Karie, I'm going to lead a more positive life with positive thinking, and gonna build a life with nothing but love and laughs! Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!

Much Love...
~M

A New Begining....

2007-12-27T15:06:00.000-08:00

OK, so I know I have totally flaked on updating this BUT for good reasons. Well, lastly I spoke about interviewing with HURLEY International. Well, I am so very excited to announce that I have been hired! I start next week, January 2nd at the Citadel Mall in the city of Commerce. FINALLY I can say Bye-Bye Bitches at the good ol' LB! Now, I get to start the new year with a new job, new attitude, and a new outlook on life! So many changes are gonna take place in 2008. I'm setting new goals to achieve, I turn 30 years old on January 9th and plan to take my Arbonne Business to the next level! And in between all this madness, I also am Stage Manager for GYPSY at Cypress College. The year is already starting with my calendar full, and I love it.

Christmas Wishes....

2007-12-11T23:38:00.000-08:00

OK, so I've been bad. Sorry for not updating. But I finally have something to report! This upcoming Friday at 11am, I have my interview at Hurley International. I am so very happy and hope that this works for me. So everyone keep your fingers crossed for me!!!

Holidays Are Here!

2007-11-20T08:56:00.000-08:00

Morning everyone! So I know I've slacked for awhile on updating, so here we go!

~ I wont waste too much time on this BUT I heard from Vick and he is moving to Hawaii to be with family. When he told me, I was hurt. But more and more when I think about it, I think it's best because he was TOO much negativity around me. He has a lot of growing up to do and a lot of problems to conquer! I wish him the best and hope he finds a better path in life to follow!

~ Uncle Bob and Uncle D are in town and I got to see them for a little bit yesterday. It was SO good to see them. I have definately miss them. Today I'm spending the day over at Mom and Dad's with everyone! Should be fun to just hang out and tell stories! There is nothing like hearing stories from Uncle Bob, because you know he always puts his own twist on things. But you gotta love him for that!

~ I have sent in my resume to a company that should be interesting to work for! But the position would be Customer Service Manager (Mon-Fri 8am-5pm). Its the same pay as what I get now with Lane Bryant, but could be more. Plus, it's like 5 minutes from my house and it's in their werehouse, so I'd be answering phone calls! NICE!!!

~I had a SCARY day/night on Sunday! When Toby and I woke up, he threw up this big lump of moist blob. I didn't know what it was, whether it was food or what. I cleaned it up and then he had a diahrea attack on that was all moist and in a clump. After cleaning that up, he seemed fine and ate a little bit. I went to work and when I got back, I went to let him out of his crate. I notice on the towel I have in there he threw up again but looked like he ate it up again. I let him out and all he did was shake. I was so scared I didn't know what to do. Needless to say he was up all night with me throwing up and having diahrea. I felt so bad I didn't know what to do! I sat on the kitchen tile with him as he threw up, rubbing his belly and back, making sure he was comfortable and such. Then after a long night of that, we went to sleep and of course I let him sleep in bed with me. He was so scared and felt like crap, how could I not let him feel safe next to me. I didn't even think twice about it, I didn't care if he had an accident in the bed because he is my pride and joy and I love him! We make sacrifices for the ones we love. Anyway, we slept with no problems. And when we got up, he was better and wanted to play. So, he's fine now, eating and drinking with no problems. Must of had a small virus of some sort! But that has got to be the pain Mother's feel when their babies are sick. You feel helpless and worried!

~Next year I am making a return to theater. Jim Hormel at Cypress College has hired me on to Stage Manage their next production, GYPSY. Jim is actually taking the semester off, so Tom Pardoe, the AMAZING Tom Pardoe is filling in as the director. Jim was very happy I wanted to come back because he knows I know how to run the ship (Theater) like no other. So he's confident he's leaving everything in my hands. Which makes me feel real good, knowing he feels that way. My best friend Matt is going to ASM (Assistant Stage Manager) with me. It should be a blast! Tom, Matt, our friend Candy, and myself all on the technical team, should be a FLAWLESS production! I can't wait!

I think thats a good enough update for now. I will try and update again soon! Thank You Aunt Jeri for the Thanksgiving card, hearing from you makes me smile and makes me miss you more and more!

Much Love to All....

ACTNow Weekend....

2007-11-01T10:15:00.000-07:00

OK, so I'm finally updating my blog, sorry for the delay. Let me start off by saying, I am a NEW man! The ACTNow weekend with Arbonne has totally changed my outlook on life and I am so thrilled that I am a part of this amazing company with this life changing opportunity!

Over the weekend we heard from some awesome ENVP's, Holly Warnol, Linda Parker, Jennifer Townsley, Sonya Shields, NVP Lynne Ganley. We also heard from Arbonne's Sr. VP Product Development & Field Events, Candace Keefe. Can I just say, each and everyone one of them helped confirmed in my head that this is what I need and want in my life. Not only is this a business opportunity, but a way to build an extended family. Everyone who is involved with Arbonne, responds to one another like they are family. It's such an awesome feeling to know there are so many people who want to change people's lives.

Moving on from that, let's chat about a few things I took home from the weekend!
~ " Are you playing to win? Or are you playing not to lose?" - Holly Warnol
~ " Products will change your skin. But the business will change your life!" - Linda Parker
~ " The Fortune is in the Follow-Up!" - Jennifer Townsley
~ " Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity." - Lynne Ganley
These next 2 quotes I am not sure who said them but here they are:
~ " Do the right thing, in the right way, for the right person."
~ " Don't hang on to the disappointments, hang on to the belief!"

We also heard from a motivation speaker, Les Brown. Now he totally got me thinking about life in general and inspired me to go forward with focus on the goal and dream. If you need a pick me up or a little inspiration, read one of his books, get one of his motivational cd's. He is awesome! I laughed, I cried, I questioned, I dreamed.
And of course, we heard from Arbonne's President, Rita Davenport. Now Marisa has spoke about her several times and was excited for me to hear from her. She was right! Rita also made me laugh, cry and inspired me. She spoke from the heart and encouraged us to push forward. She wants us to sit next to her at the dinner table. She wants us at the top! She wants us to be the top ENVP! As I sat there and listened, I kept thinking that this isn't just an opportunity for me, but for my family. Once I make this happen, not only will I benefit but so will my family. I will not only be living the life I deserve, but I will be able to share that with my family. And knowing that their worries are over, will give me such joy in life, you don't even know.

My team, Karie and Angie, are so motivated we have set a goal! By NTC 2008 in Atlanta, GA, in April, we plan to become AM's within the company. We want to get recognized and receive the honor of palcing our names on the roster of successful Arbonne Independant Consultants.

So watch us make our way to the top! And watch the "3 Amigos" dream our dreams!

Arbonne's ACTNow Anaheim (Day 1)

2007-10-27T00:02:00.000-07:00

OK, so I am even more inspired to reach for the stars and achieve success! Arbonne is not only a great company, but it's life altering. I am now on a mission to spread the word and build a NATION of my own so everyone in this world will know the Arbonne name. I am on my way to the top! Watch me fly and build a legacy that I so rightfully deserve!

Thank You Marisa and Kristi!

Prayers...

2007-10-22T22:53:00.001-07:00

OK, so as we all know there are so many fires going around California its rediculous. We all need to take a step back and realize that we need to join together as a state, and nation to resolve all the world issues. I overheard that 2 of the big fires was done intentionally. Don't people realize that when doing stupid acts like this, that it effects the world that THEY live in? I guess I'll never understand why people do bad things in the world. So I want everyone to say a prayer, whether you believe in a God or not, close your eyes, and wish then, that one day our world will be a BETTER place to live and that Mother Nature can be a beautiful thing again. There is HOPE!

A Few HOT Guys....

2007-10-20T10:13:00.001-07:00

Manuel Miranda (a friend of mine!)

Ryan Carnes (General Hospital / Desperate Housewives)

Zac Efron (High School Musical / Hairspray)

Victor Webster (Sex And The City)

Matthew G. Taylor (Queer As Folk)

Justin Theroux (Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle)

Ewan McGregor and Jude Law

David Anders (ALIAS / HEROES)

Chris Evans (Fantastic Four)

The Little Mermaid: The Broadway Musical

2007-10-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

OK, I just wanted to share a few pictures that I found of one of my favorite Broadway actress': Sherie Rene Scott. She currently is playing Ursula the Sea Witch in Disney's newest Broadway musical, THE LITTLE MERMAID. Check out the amazing costume!

Lazy Day...

2007-10-20T09:54:00.000-07:00

Good Morning! It's Saturday morning and I truly did NOT want to get up. It definately was one of those days where you don't want to open your eyes and wake up. You just want to roll over and fall back asleep. It seems I'm having more and more of those days now that I've began my career with Arbonne. I just can't wait till the day when I can sleep in and not have to worry about waking up to go to work and clocking in on time. Today is my last day working at the Westminster Mall store. Of course I close tonight, so I'll be off around 8pm. I was gonna do only a half day but Nohemi called me yesterday and asked me to start and train a new hire tonight for her. When I asked when he will be there, she said 12:30pm. There goes my plan of only a half day! But its cool, I need the money. Talking about money and Arbonne, my last two Arbonne Parties this past week were a BUST! No one showed up, except for Matt. But he has already been to a few parties so it doesn't count. LOL My next party on Tuesday next week, I'm serving WINE so I'm hoping to get people there with that announcement! Karie and I have already started booking things for November which is good. I will be emailing some friends with some dates to see if they can host some parties for me. HOPEFULLY one will come through. I think that's it for now. Now its time to get Toby up off my lap since he just fell back asleep, shave, shower and off to work. JOY!

Yesterday In The Mail....

2007-10-19T09:33:00.000-07:00

OK, so yesterday I checked my mail and I found a package from my Aunt Jeri. It was very light in weight so I was very anxious to see what was inside. So, here's a little backstory:

Aunt Jeri and Dave are out touring the country. I read their blog and see where there are at or have already been to. So I saw that they were about to visit Salem, MA where all the "witch" stuff happened. I left a comment on her blog asking her to pick me up a new witches broom because mine is running on empty and not flying so high anymore. Well I never heard anything from them about it. What I did hear though was that they had a bad experience while in Salem with a tour they bought tickets for. Anywy, back to the package. So I get inside my apartment and what do I see inside? Yes, a witches broom! I couldn't stop laughing. It was the cutest thing I have seen, and it was a gift to me from my Aunt Jeri. I LOVE IT! Check out the picture below and see what I'm talking about!

Vick Called....

2007-10-16T23:08:00.000-07:00

OK, so tonight I was driving home with Karie, we were carrying on a great conversation. All of a sudden, my phone rings, I look to see who it is, and then my heart dropped. It was Vick! My heart started beating a little faster and I got all nervous. So, Karie insisted I answer it, so I did. He just wanted to call and let me know where he has been and why he disappeared. He explained and I didn't know what to say. But all my feelings rushed through my body and I began to miss him so much. WHY???? I know in my heart he has tons of problems and has major baggage. But then why do I want to see him or be with him so bad? Why is it I always fall for the wrong guys? What should I do? HELP!!!

Sunday Morning.....

2007-10-14T17:58:00.000-07:00

OK, so I know its not morning anymore, but who can resist not quoting the song title to one of my favorite bands? Yes, NO DOUBT! Sunday Morning has got to be one of my favorites. It always gets me going!

So, today work was busy. I am at Westminster all week, so a total difference from Long Beach. I got to see some old customers of mine from South Coast, which was nice. I got to see Danielle for a little bit. I am so happy that her and I have become friends. She makes me feel like I can do anything and feel young again.

I didn't mention that Friday night after Matt's show, I received a phone call from Danielle letting me know what happened to Vick. Well it seems Vick relapsed and started doing drugs again. So he was placed into a treatment facility and psych ward for observation. He was released on Thursday last week. Once she told me, I felt empty inside. I wasn't sure what I was supposed to say or how I was supposed to feel. But I will admit that, I felt nothing. I wasn't sad, I wasn't hurt, I didn't cry, no emotions at all. It was odd to me because as some of you know I can be VERY emotional. But this time, I felt nothing. I do hope he gets better and can rely on his friends and family to support him. My only thought now is, I wonder if he will ever try to contact me? I'm not crossing my fingers, and I'm not waiting for him to. Just curious to see what his excuse would be on why he couldn't trust me and confide in me, since in fact we were actually dating as a couple. Oh well, just one more question that lingers!

Why do men feel that they need to hide their pain and depression? We're all human, we all have our ups and downs. When will society learn that we are all here for one reason, to co-exist. And with that we should rely and depend on your friends, family, neighbors, co-workers, boss', people to help you through the trial of life itself. I only hope that the future will learn from our mistakes and grow to be a much better place to live.

Party!

2007-10-13T11:39:00.000-07:00

OK, so today is Saturday and tonight, Karie, Angie and I are going to Cheryl's Birthday party at 6pm. Hopefully lots of new people will be there to meet. She said she knew one gay guy will be there! YEAH! LOL Anyway, it should be fun, to hang out and actually be surrounded with new people. Gets all 3 of us out of the so called "box" that we live in. But I promise I wont drink too much, for 2 reasons: I work tomorrow, and also because I don't wanna hang over!

A New Day....

2007-10-11T10:00:00.001-07:00

So it has been brought to my attention that I let my negativity run my life. I was asked to name some of my successes in life and in work, and it was the hardest thing to think of. It has been bothering me and so I've decided to make a change. Instead of posting negative, upset, lonely feeling, depressed, and unhealthy blogs, I'm going to start posting good things in them. In a way I guess you could say my unhappiness in life was running my days and nights. And sometimes people could see how unhappy I was. But most of the time, I put on a smile and pretend that everything was A-OK! Yes, life sucks! Yes life is hard! BUT I have to look at each day and celebrate another day here. I have to celebrate that I woke up and have a dog next to me who loves me just as much as I love him. I have friends who I sometimes talk to and hang out with. Karie, who I love and adore, I see usually every Sunday for our Wine Night! I need to celebrate those days and look towards them. I need to celebrate my niece Inara! She's beautiful and healthy. I need to celebrate my family. My Mother and Father, sister Marisa, Shawn, Jeri and Dave, my cousin Kim and new husband Danny. These are all people I think about on a weekly basis, and I need to start acknowledging them and expressing how much I love each and every one of them! These are successes and realizing this is my greatest success of all!

First Night....

2007-10-09T22:47:00.000-07:00

OK, so tonight was my first night at my new store. I was tranferred to the Long Beach Towne Center location. It was slow but nice. Not a lot of bitchy customers. Staff is so far nice. Brenda the manager is great. Very low key and relaxed. I think its gonna be OK for awhile at this store. There is a lot of work that needs to get done and of course I'm there to get it in order. Wish me luck!

Depression....

2007-10-06T23:35:00.000-07:00

It's Saturday night and I'm sitting at home, drinking some beer and a few glasses of wine. I'm depressed that I am alone and that I can't seem to find someone decent to date. Truly what is so wrong with me? Wait, I know the answer to that, so nevermind.

I'm also depressed because I have lost complete contact with Vick. I have tried to reach out but nothing. Danielle hasn't heard from him either. I fear the worst and don't think I can take the news of someone else who was in my life, that I shared feelings for, took his life. I don't think I could stand hearing that, I would simple just shut down emotionally.

Claim this as a drunken rant and another pity party for me!

Work Get On My Nerves....

2007-10-04T22:46:00.000-07:00

OK, so tonight at work, I called my District Manager Sonya, to see if I could tranfer to the Westminster Mall store instead of the Long Beach store. We finally connected and she told me that unfortunately I can't go to the Westminster store because they are no longer going to have an ASM in that store, that they are just gonna fill it with a Full Time Sales Manager (a management role below an ASM). So I still have to go to Long Beach starting next week. So WHATEVER! Once again the game is being played. Well I've made a decision. For over 5 years now I have been playing this GAME with Sonya and playing by her rules. Guess what people, NOT ANYMORE! Time for me to put my foot down and tell her the rules. If she don't like it, OH FREAKIN' WELL! Let's see her try and fire me.

An Update For Jeri....

2007-10-03T10:26:00.000-07:00

So, after reading a comment from my loving Aunt Jeri, I figured I would take a moment to update my blog. Not much to report but here we go...

As you know I have been working at the Santa Ana LANE BRYANT as "Acting" Store Manager. Well my assignment there is almost complete. This is my last week at the store and begining Sunday I am being transferred to the Long Beach Towne Center location. I am going back to being an Assistant Manager. I was told on Monday from my District Manager Sonya Spurlock, that this is NOT a punishment. She feels I did an amazing job at the Santa Ana store, but since there were some quick adjustments within the management team, she wanted me to be placed in the LB store so she can pull me out to travel to new store openings, help surrounding stores with visual training, and so on. Now all this happened while I was away on vacation and wasn't informed till the day before I returned back to work. I did express my feelings to her at our meeting on Monday. I definately let her know I felt like I had no other choice to go to LB, and that this whole thing was a slap in the face. I was consulted or talked to about the whole change and wasn't asked my feelings in the matter. Things were just done and signed off on. So, as before, I'm kinda a little frustrated with her and the company. But what's new right? LOL For the past 2 years now, I have kinda been my own boss and done things my way, and now I have to take a step back and allow someone else to tell me what to do, do my schedule for me, and also be the boss. And as most of you know, it is VERY hard to do that! So we'll see what happens.

As for Vick, the guy I met and kinda fell for. He is no longer in my life. We met, we bonded, we laughed, we cried, and now I haven't heard from him in over a week and a half. So, I've decided that it's not worth all this drama. That I need something more stable than what he had to offer. So, once again, I'm in the single depressed boat again! I totally had a pity party last night. I got real depressed, sat in the dark with Toby, drank a few beers and shed a few tears. But I'm over it now. It's a new day and today I'm gonna go see my beautiful niece Inara! So, things will get better, I know this!

Lastly, I quit smoking 2 weeks ago. I finally decided that it was time. Not just for myself but for my sister and baby Inie! Inara is gonna need me around later in life for fashion advice and boyfriend advice, so I need to take a step in the right direction to make sure that I am around. So, this was the first step, now I need to join a gym and get my ass into shape! LOL

Alright Jeri, I think that's a good update! Are you happy? LOL I do miss you very much and hope you're well. And you know I am so very jealous of the life you lead right now. To travel around would be such a nice vacation! Maybe someday I'll have that, when Arbonne pays me the big bucks! Oh yeah, so when are you gonna place an order from me? And it better be a big one! LOL Love ya....

Beautiful Inara Grace Tomlinson

2007-09-16T11:06:00.000-07:00

~ Inara Grace Tomlinson
Born: 09-15-07 at 12:58am

Weight: 6 lbs. 5 ounces

Length: 19.5"

I'm An UNCLE!

2007-09-15T03:21:00.002-07:00

OK, so yes it's 3:21am on Saturday September 15th. BUT I wanted to announce the arrival of INARA GRACE TOMLINSON! The most beautiful baby I have ever seen. My sister Marisa went into labor almost 24 hours ago. I am so VERY proud of Marisa and Shawn, they have created a new light in the family, that will be smoothered with love every single day that passes! CONGRATS to you both and I love all 3 of you!

Welcome to the world Beautiful Inara!

~Uncle Spanky

Steppin' Up To The Plate...

2007-09-13T22:25:00.000-07:00

OK, so tonight, I was put to a major challenge. Marisa asked me to do a full Arbonne Presentation all on my own. Well, I came out on TOP! Yes, I did it and was nervous as hell but got through it. Not only am I proud of myself but so very happy that I went through it all. I know now that I can do this and make it work. True, I stumbled a few times but it was OK. I kept going and kept smiling! So, YEAH ME! I can't wait till the next one.